♔ lock and key
ever since i was a kid, i've had a hard time expressing my feelings.
god knows how much i want to let it all out -- but for some weird reason, every time i try to force the words out of my mouth, the more it gets stuck in the back of my throat. my mom would always scold me, telling me not to keep everything all to myself. it's not like i've experienced someone backstabbing me or started spreading malicious rumors about me. it would make more sense if i've had a traitor friend or something, but for 20 years, my life has been ... exceptionally normal. my friends are awesome, my family has been nothing but supportive even though i've been a pain in the ass, i'm attending my dream university and well, to cut it short: life IS great.
maybe i don't want to burden others with my concerns.
maybe i'm afraid of what others will say about me, that if they knew what my weaknesses are, then it's the same as giving them the key to destroy or hurt me.
or maybe, in the back of my mind, i still think i'm some kind of superwoman who doesn't need anyone's help to solve her own problems.
once in a while, i wish it were easy to share my burdens to someone. it's so liberating to free yourself from the things that hold you back. and it's a good feeling knowing that you've given a part of your life to someone you trust with all your being.
god knows how much i want to let it all out -- but for some weird reason, every time i try to force the words out of my mouth, the more it gets stuck in the back of my throat. my mom would always scold me, telling me not to keep everything all to myself. it's not like i've experienced someone backstabbing me or started spreading malicious rumors about me. it would make more sense if i've had a traitor friend or something, but for 20 years, my life has been ... exceptionally normal. my friends are awesome, my family has been nothing but supportive even though i've been a pain in the ass, i'm attending my dream university and well, to cut it short: life IS great.
maybe i don't want to burden others with my concerns.
maybe i'm afraid of what others will say about me, that if they knew what my weaknesses are, then it's the same as giving them the key to destroy or hurt me.
or maybe, in the back of my mind, i still think i'm some kind of superwoman who doesn't need anyone's help to solve her own problems.
once in a while, i wish it were easy to share my burdens to someone. it's so liberating to free yourself from the things that hold you back. and it's a good feeling knowing that you've given a part of your life to someone you trust with all your being.