catch up SNEAK 3
so you want other updates do you? well ok.
Clifford and i and the whatever-the-hell-was-going-on-thing-we-were-doing is over as you people at school can probably tell/see. he went back to her as everyone knew he would do. you wanna know what's creepy about the whole situation? i'm not mad, angry, jealous, or hurt. it just makes me confused and finished. seriously. him and i were talking online earlier this week and he said something about me doing a lot for him "...all for what, me to trip you?" i told him "no. not really. you tried to trip me thinking my foot would be there. luckily i saw your foot coming and i was already a mile away." he should know that that mile is getting wider because of her and it's getting hard for me to look over my shoulder to make sure he's ok. pretty soon i'll need bonoculars and loophole hook upfriends. and if he reads this he should know that he'll always be a special friend to me even though he's made his decision. i love him as a friend and i always will and goodbye will still be just as hard. he should also know that with whatever he is telling her about "us" is driving his and my friendship farther apart because whether he wants to admit it or not... the decision is me...or her.... because that is how SHE wants it. she's not going to stand by and watch you care about me, or talk about me, or want to be my friend. all she is going to do is have you pick me over her. and that's fine clifford. if you want someone ruling your life and telling you who can be your friend and who can't be. see, i can vent here on LJ beacuse at school your a brick wall, your cell phone, your house phone it's all a brick wall again becuase you know what? i can't hurt her. i cannot force myself to be selfish enough to push it. i can tell you everything of what i really want to say if you want to hear it. but it's YOU who's going to have to make the call becuase friendships are not one sided. it's a 2 way street babe. i'm not calling you. and i'm not updating you on any of my medical problems i am having either. it's your responsability to ask and your responsablitiy to call. not mine. (no i will not put that info. on LJ. i am fine so stop worrying about me you big babies) btw. if you want to continue to read about me when you get online just to see how i'm doing...you're going to have to get an LJ and list me as one of your "friends list" to become mutual because in the next month or so i'm going to make this a protected LJ friends only journal. you should also know that...nevermind, i've said enough and you told me last time not to put her on LJ so i'll stop there. ps- i still have your book..ne ne ne ne ne ne... [says mimickingly]
i've been getting in a lot of anye time. that's cool cause we usually don't spend that much time together because we're both busy with other things.
work has been boring and crappy as heck as usual but then again, who's isn't?
haven't talked to jesse at all. only on LJ and at school. hmm...
this a good enough update erin? oh and...i'm grounded because i was at someone's house late and i popped my tire and mom wouldn't have found out if it wasn't for that and i didn't feel like lying to her so i told her the truth and she was only made because i went out with her telling me not to.