Mothers Day
I have been in the worst mood all day. Been so agro and wasn't sure why, until i was saying to Budgie that i was bored and that we should be out doing stuff on the weekend instead of staying at home being boring. He commented to me that i should go visit my friends to which i replied "They're all spending time with their mothers." Thats when it hit me.. i realised that i've been angry because of my mother and how i cant spend mothers day with her.. and how i hardly ever spent any time with her during the last 25 years. Not for lack of wanting to. It's a long long story and hard to explain so i dont think i'm gonna go right into it at the moment. But lets just say i have a lot of anger and resentment. I should be at my boyfriends Mothers house right now having dinner with his family but i couldn't bring myself to go because i feel too depressed. I miss my mum.