things got a little crazy
I think it is weird how I randomly think about LJ. It is about time for an update though. There is a lot of craziness in my life right now and I'm about to spill as much as I possibly can. Hopefully it won't be too all over the place, but looking back at past entries.. I'm sure it will be. I'll cover the basics first though.
-School-
I just started second semester of my junior year. All of a sudden tonight when I was out to dinner with Alex, it actually hit me. I'm getting close to graduation. SCARY!! This time next year I will be officially freaking out. The good thing is that I'm not going to let that affect me.. well I mean I am going to let it. I have to make the most of this last year. I have to start making good choices. good luck to me because that hasn't been my strong point lately. Anyways, this semester I have 12 credits but that comes out to be 5 actually quite difficult classes. I have all KIN classes now so I actually like going to my classes. I already know that I'm going to have to study a hell of a lot more this semester and I'm okay with that. That right there will help my keep my life more in order anyways.
-Family-
I was just down in FL about a month ago to visit my family. I flew down there right after finals for a nice little vacay. We did christmas early. I got spoiled like crazy and loved every second of it. My parents are doing better and its nice to see them happier. My dad is working out of town though so its a little hard on my mom right now.. she gets lonely. My baby bro well he is growing up. He just turned 14 and I just really wish I could spend more time with him. He is at the very impressionable age and I just don't want him fucking up. They are all flying up in a couple weeks.. not under the best circumstances though. One of our really good family friends just passed away. Rough situation but hopefully I'll get to head back to WL for the weekend and hang out with them.
-Friends-
This category is kind of weird. It seems like i go through friends like crazy, but I have met slash gotten close to a few great people lately. The bad news is that i've lost touch with a few also. Ash and I.. well it would be a lie to say she is my best friend. I can count on one hand how many times we've spoken slash hung out since summer. I don't even know where to begin with that situation. I still try to keep in contact slash visit libby and shamoun as much as I can. I know they will always be there for me. Alex is my life saver as always. Genna is becoming one of my best friends right now and its perfect because I really need that close like girl friend. There are a few others that hang around.. but other than that.. I'm over fake people who I can't trust.
-Boys-
Wow.. all over the place would be an understatement. The only way to describe this category would have to be that I'm fully enjoying my single life. I'm meeting a lot of great guys and some not so great ones. I've dated a few guys this year, nothing serious. It seems like I am not into commitment at all. I'm just not ready for it.. or haven't found anyone worth it. Once I realize something in a guy that I don't like.. I just don't bother anymore. I've done that whole pretend thing for enough of my life. No point in wasting anyones time. I've been making some not so good decisions regarding situations with guys.. but I'm getting better and not really letting it eat me up. I'm trying my hardest to learn from my mistakes and its going okay so far. The whole Shaun situation has finally become normal i think.. He is in Colorado now and that kind of makes me life easier/better. no offense
-Roomies-
I'm actually not thrilled with this situation right now. Our house absolutely sucks and because its winter I'm starting to get a little cabin fever. No one is ever really home and when they are.. like we never hang out. Not really what I'm used to. The whole thin wall situation isn't great considering I hear my roommate fuck more times a week than I can count on 2 hands. I'm not to excited for next year either considering some recent drama between those girls but I just don't know what to even do about that so I'm trying not to get involved.
hm.. what else??
oh
-Work-
I'm still working at mongo and pretty much love it. I'm making good money most of the time and the people there are amazing. I kind of got caught up in the whole mongo scene over break. Like just hanging out with everyone a little too much blah blah but I'm kind of over that. Mongo prom is coming up and I'm pumped for that. Its a week from today. I still need to get a dress and whatnot. I'm going with BMack so its going to be a complete shit show I'm guessing. um.. other than that I'm just going to try to separate myself from that crew a little more and just try to stay focused on school and work and other friends.
now comes the random jumble of things that I haven't mentioned yet. Life overall is just all over the place. I've realized that I can't control everything but there are some things that I need to start taking control of. Like the boy situation, doing better in classes, etc. I'm just going to plan to be surprised. I didn't really make a new years resolution.. but I always have goals for myself. With the start of classes.. I've already met knew people in them and I'm going to try to be more active with that. Also, I'm trying not to force anything with the boy situations.. just kind of go with the flow and be more responsible and safe. I'm a smart girl who has done some stupid things in the past 4 months.
but I guess thats about it.. maybe I will hit this up again sometime soon.. it felt good to write this all down :)
-School-
I just started second semester of my junior year. All of a sudden tonight when I was out to dinner with Alex, it actually hit me. I'm getting close to graduation. SCARY!! This time next year I will be officially freaking out. The good thing is that I'm not going to let that affect me.. well I mean I am going to let it. I have to make the most of this last year. I have to start making good choices. good luck to me because that hasn't been my strong point lately. Anyways, this semester I have 12 credits but that comes out to be 5 actually quite difficult classes. I have all KIN classes now so I actually like going to my classes. I already know that I'm going to have to study a hell of a lot more this semester and I'm okay with that. That right there will help my keep my life more in order anyways.
-Family-
I was just down in FL about a month ago to visit my family. I flew down there right after finals for a nice little vacay. We did christmas early. I got spoiled like crazy and loved every second of it. My parents are doing better and its nice to see them happier. My dad is working out of town though so its a little hard on my mom right now.. she gets lonely. My baby bro well he is growing up. He just turned 14 and I just really wish I could spend more time with him. He is at the very impressionable age and I just don't want him fucking up. They are all flying up in a couple weeks.. not under the best circumstances though. One of our really good family friends just passed away. Rough situation but hopefully I'll get to head back to WL for the weekend and hang out with them.
-Friends-
This category is kind of weird. It seems like i go through friends like crazy, but I have met slash gotten close to a few great people lately. The bad news is that i've lost touch with a few also. Ash and I.. well it would be a lie to say she is my best friend. I can count on one hand how many times we've spoken slash hung out since summer. I don't even know where to begin with that situation. I still try to keep in contact slash visit libby and shamoun as much as I can. I know they will always be there for me. Alex is my life saver as always. Genna is becoming one of my best friends right now and its perfect because I really need that close like girl friend. There are a few others that hang around.. but other than that.. I'm over fake people who I can't trust.
-Boys-
Wow.. all over the place would be an understatement. The only way to describe this category would have to be that I'm fully enjoying my single life. I'm meeting a lot of great guys and some not so great ones. I've dated a few guys this year, nothing serious. It seems like I am not into commitment at all. I'm just not ready for it.. or haven't found anyone worth it. Once I realize something in a guy that I don't like.. I just don't bother anymore. I've done that whole pretend thing for enough of my life. No point in wasting anyones time. I've been making some not so good decisions regarding situations with guys.. but I'm getting better and not really letting it eat me up. I'm trying my hardest to learn from my mistakes and its going okay so far. The whole Shaun situation has finally become normal i think.. He is in Colorado now and that kind of makes me life easier/better. no offense
-Roomies-
I'm actually not thrilled with this situation right now. Our house absolutely sucks and because its winter I'm starting to get a little cabin fever. No one is ever really home and when they are.. like we never hang out. Not really what I'm used to. The whole thin wall situation isn't great considering I hear my roommate fuck more times a week than I can count on 2 hands. I'm not to excited for next year either considering some recent drama between those girls but I just don't know what to even do about that so I'm trying not to get involved.
hm.. what else??
oh
-Work-
I'm still working at mongo and pretty much love it. I'm making good money most of the time and the people there are amazing. I kind of got caught up in the whole mongo scene over break. Like just hanging out with everyone a little too much blah blah but I'm kind of over that. Mongo prom is coming up and I'm pumped for that. Its a week from today. I still need to get a dress and whatnot. I'm going with BMack so its going to be a complete shit show I'm guessing. um.. other than that I'm just going to try to separate myself from that crew a little more and just try to stay focused on school and work and other friends.
now comes the random jumble of things that I haven't mentioned yet. Life overall is just all over the place. I've realized that I can't control everything but there are some things that I need to start taking control of. Like the boy situation, doing better in classes, etc. I'm just going to plan to be surprised. I didn't really make a new years resolution.. but I always have goals for myself. With the start of classes.. I've already met knew people in them and I'm going to try to be more active with that. Also, I'm trying not to force anything with the boy situations.. just kind of go with the flow and be more responsible and safe. I'm a smart girl who has done some stupid things in the past 4 months.
but I guess thats about it.. maybe I will hit this up again sometime soon.. it felt good to write this all down :)