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so yeah. i had hockey today. got up at fucking 7 in the morning. it killed me. im usually not up until like 2 on a normal day. but w/ez. so hockey pretty much killed my legs. actually they arent THAT bad now. i mean i came home, showered, ate, and then went to sleep till 2, talked with marc on the phone and then came down here. legs arent THAT sore. deff thought it woulda been worse. lolz im listening to paul van dyk. lolzlolz. so marc wants to hang out tonight. and im all like :S:S i dont want to disappoint him. thats all. but i cant ever come up with the words to tell him thats why. i just keep saying, "my mom wont let me" or "my moms in a bad mood, i dont want to ask her" and hes all like "let me talk to her, i bet she'll like me" and idk... i just cant tell him, "i dont want to meet you cause i dont want to disappoint you." like wtf? erg why am i so akward. fudgefudgefudge. erg. man, i wish i wasnt so pussy. and he kinda sounds too good to be true. okay, hes been living on his own since he was like 16. works full time during the week. graduated high school with fucking honours. hes not going to school yet, he wants to be self employed and do something with real estate. idk. he blazes. he parties. like too good to be fucking true. idk, i was talking to sinead about it and shes like "i sence love in the air" or w/e she said and annies liek "sounds like lies" im so confused. like idk wtf to do?! argh. help me. please :|
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