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As I stare at this blank LiveJournal page, i sit and think to myself what I could possibly have to say To: Myself, My friends, Whoever Reads this....
I basically keep this journal to help organize my thoughts.
It helps a bunch sometimes,
especially to get some insight from some people.
Right now I feel worthless.
I'm 19
and this is a cry for help.
I've mistreated my boyfriend,
been far to distant to my close friends,
totally bashed my mother,
haven't even talked to my sad father,
I've been a huge bitch to my sister....
I'm evil lately.
I didn't even notice myself slip into the evilness, because at heart I know I am good...
but for now I need some help.
I need to help myself.
I don't know where to start.
Now that I truly don't have my cellphone
and i can't call
a nNy On e
I am s0 o0o ALONE.
Well of course I have my Justin,
but he's crazy sometimes and I need a second opinion.
I'm lost at what to do, who to talk to, where to turn.
People live their lives miserably. Its such a sad thing.
Its a wonder that If we really are just in hell while we are on this earth.
---mmmake the best of it.
I'm practically shaking with such frustration.
remember this phrase:
Sticks AND sTones may break my bones, but WORDS will N E V E R hurt me.
yea, thats way easier said than done.
damn.
I gotta do somethin productive with myself, and quick...
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...............
I'll make it up to you all.
somehow
someday.
life is just whack guys, you know it.
oh and Tara is cool. yeah hehe.
I basically keep this journal to help organize my thoughts.
It helps a bunch sometimes,
especially to get some insight from some people.
Right now I feel worthless.
I'm 19
and this is a cry for help.
I've mistreated my boyfriend,
been far to distant to my close friends,
totally bashed my mother,
haven't even talked to my sad father,
I've been a huge bitch to my sister....
I'm evil lately.
I didn't even notice myself slip into the evilness, because at heart I know I am good...
but for now I need some help.
I need to help myself.
I don't know where to start.
Now that I truly don't have my cellphone
and i can't call
a nNy On e
I am s0 o0o ALONE.
Well of course I have my Justin,
but he's crazy sometimes and I need a second opinion.
I'm lost at what to do, who to talk to, where to turn.
People live their lives miserably. Its such a sad thing.
Its a wonder that If we really are just in hell while we are on this earth.
---mmmake the best of it.
I'm practically shaking with such frustration.
remember this phrase:
Sticks AND sTones may break my bones, but WORDS will N E V E R hurt me.
yea, thats way easier said than done.
damn.
I gotta do somethin productive with myself, and quick...
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...............
I'll make it up to you all.
somehow
someday.
life is just whack guys, you know it.
oh and Tara is cool. yeah hehe.