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I'm personally appalled at the amount of fics I have written up that have [break] or [hiatus] or [ARGGGG] written at the ends of where I am at with them, because that amount is increasing. I have all my fics on one single Word document (safe as hell, I know), and when I want to start a new fic I have in mind, I must either finish chugging out the previous fic or put in a break to signal where one story 'ended' and the new one begins.
Except...I haven't been able to finish a lot of my fics lately. Which is strange because I've already forumlated them all and fleshed them out in my mind and I'm happy with them but when I write them out they don't come out like how I want them to?
It's really frustrating because I like what I have summarized in my mind and I want to share my headcanons with everyone but I can't because I can't write it like I want it to sound!! The worst part is that the longer the time is between me putting the [break] and me returning to finish the story, the larger the chance that I just won't finish that fic at all!
My scumbag brain also won't stop coming up with new fics so I'm just trying to keep the deluge managable.
In other news, I'm having little panic attacks and have been compulsively checking and rechecking that the articles I've written for work are in my editor's basket, and I have a strong suspicion that one of my articles (out of the 3 I've written so far) has disappeared, but I've sent that article at least several times to make sure it got in that I feel awkward sending it yet again. Admittedly, that article was one that I didn't spend too much time on and isn't my best, but it would still be a waste of time to write it out and then not have anything done with it. My first article is currently live, and should make the print next week hopefully.
I'm settling into a summer slump, help!! I was so gungho about this internship and finding a second job and now all I want to do is lie in bed and read yaoi animes because I am procrastinating on even watching animes I like!!!