meet me half way
or don't meet me at all.
i am tired of being the one to mother my relationships. i am tired of being the enabler, allowing the men that make me fall in love with them then leave me to pick up the pieces that they inevitably hand over for me to juggle. I am tired of being the poor sucker who works and works and gets a few pats on the head or the occasional treat. don't tell me because i already know, the rewards that come few and far between are the kind that are the hardest to give up--a person can be conditioned ridiculously easy in that manner. and yet again it would appear that i fell into the trap--a few i love you's, never enough to satisfy, and when they are wrung out, so distasteful; the occasional email that only brings more tears since it's heartbreaking infrequency just exemplifies how empty the wait in between is; the promises of devotion and sincere regret at leaving immediately replaced by nonchalance and angry declarations that life is too hard and too busy to make time for ME.
well damnit i DO NOT ask too much. i dont ask for sonnets, i do not ask for money, i do not ask for plane trips, and i do not ask for anything but the minimum that should be there--should you REALLY care.
a man in love should not have to be shitfaced to profess that love, or cornered into confessions.
a man in love should not be angry at you for interrupting their reading or their studying--shouldnt they be happy for the pleasant diversion from life's dreary obligations?
a man in love should not be flippant about the object of their affections desire to see them, and the monetary restrictions that keep them appart.
a man in love should not simply be concerned with who his love might fuck and should instead try and do things that make it easier for the afore mentioned girl to wait it out, so that theirmeeting can be all that much sweeter.
and finally,
a man in love should not place that 'love' so far down on the list of priorities that she can feel the coldfront from halfway across the bloody continent.
so, if not done, then at the very least, get a good head of steam built up, and confront the truth, confront him. MAKE HIM SEE that even if he 'doesn't mean it that way'--this is how it feels when a heart breaks.
i am tired of being the one to mother my relationships. i am tired of being the enabler, allowing the men that make me fall in love with them then leave me to pick up the pieces that they inevitably hand over for me to juggle. I am tired of being the poor sucker who works and works and gets a few pats on the head or the occasional treat. don't tell me because i already know, the rewards that come few and far between are the kind that are the hardest to give up--a person can be conditioned ridiculously easy in that manner. and yet again it would appear that i fell into the trap--a few i love you's, never enough to satisfy, and when they are wrung out, so distasteful; the occasional email that only brings more tears since it's heartbreaking infrequency just exemplifies how empty the wait in between is; the promises of devotion and sincere regret at leaving immediately replaced by nonchalance and angry declarations that life is too hard and too busy to make time for ME.
well damnit i DO NOT ask too much. i dont ask for sonnets, i do not ask for money, i do not ask for plane trips, and i do not ask for anything but the minimum that should be there--should you REALLY care.
a man in love should not have to be shitfaced to profess that love, or cornered into confessions.
a man in love should not be angry at you for interrupting their reading or their studying--shouldnt they be happy for the pleasant diversion from life's dreary obligations?
a man in love should not be flippant about the object of their affections desire to see them, and the monetary restrictions that keep them appart.
a man in love should not simply be concerned with who his love might fuck and should instead try and do things that make it easier for the afore mentioned girl to wait it out, so that theirmeeting can be all that much sweeter.
and finally,
a man in love should not place that 'love' so far down on the list of priorities that she can feel the coldfront from halfway across the bloody continent.
so, if not done, then at the very least, get a good head of steam built up, and confront the truth, confront him. MAKE HIM SEE that even if he 'doesn't mean it that way'--this is how it feels when a heart breaks.