cause when i get a little more sober, i know i'll be over you
You guys remember, a few months ago, how I was complaining about that 51 day cycle I had, and how that was soooooooo long and atrocious? Well, I managed to far surpass that and set myself a new record for stupidly long cycles that don't result in pregnancy. You ready for this number? You're not, really, there is no way to be prepared for this level of absurdity. 68 days. SIXTY-FUCKING-EIGHT and I'm still not flippin' pregnant, as evidenced by the vast amount of bleeding I'm currently doing. I don't think I ovulated until somewhere around day 53 or 54, so that was almost two months of my body just . . . not being helpful in any way, shape or form. To the point where I'd pretty much completely written off this cycle for any chance of getting pregnant, and so while we did actually (totally incidentally) have sex once around the day I think I ovulated, it was obviously not sufficient for making the babies happen. Guys, I can't even begin to tell you how frustrating this whole thing is. I get that you only have whatever chance of conceiving every cycle anyway, but it's so damn hard not having any idea what my cycles are even doing. How do I have any chance of timing sex to maximize my chances if the window of when I might be ovulating varies so hugely? And seriously, I've been off the birth control since March. That's 8 or 9 months already, and my cycle shows no signs of figuring itself out or getting regular. Uggghhhhhhh. Part of me really just wants to say fuck it and stop tracking everything and stop actively trying, but the other part of me really really wants to be pregnant and can't help but be disappointed every time I get my period. Stupid body. :(
There's that whole mess going on, and then there's a lot of nonsense at work surrounding this mandatory PD presentation we have to give to the TAs on the last day before winter break if we want to get paid that day, and I am so ready for that shit to be over. I feel like I'm being pulled in 9 million directions every day and never getting done half of what I need to. I think overwhelmed and run down would be accurate descriptions of how I've felt lately. I need some rest and relaxation time. I was really seriously considering taking a sick day next week, just to give myself a day, but I don't think I can manage it at all without screwing up some responsibility at work. Blah. I know it's only two more weeks until break, but that's both a blessing and a curse, because there's still a lot of shit that needs to get done before then, namely this damn presentation that none of us even remotely want to do.
But break itself should be awesome. I'm going down to Jersey for the first time in 2 years, and I'll get to spend Christmas with my sister and see a bunch of friends I haven't seen in way too long, so it should be pretty great. And I think I may be able to spend some time with Kelly in Virginia as well, though I still need to touch base with her to confirm all the details of that piece.
Fortinos, where we usually do our grocery shopping, has started a points program where you earn points for certain things you buy, and the more you shop, the more the points offers are tailored to what you usually get. They only just started the program a couple weeks ago, but the points accumulate pretty fast. Every 1000 points equals $1, and you can start redeeming them once you hit 20,000 points, and then in increments of 10,000 after that. It only took us 3 shopping trips to hit that first 20,000, and on our trip last night, there was a bonus offer of 20,000 points for every $100 spent in the store. I couldn't tell you the last time Brad and I grocery shopped without spending over $100, so of course we got that bonus, which means that we've now essentially got $40 worth of free groceries next time we go shopping. Pretty sweet deal if you ask me!
In knitting news, I finished a really soft fluffy shawl using the mohair and silk yarn that Kit sent me in the spring, and it's really nice. I also knit a Mobius cowl for one of the teachers I work with, which was both the fastest and most magical piece of knitting ever. It took me a couple hours from start to finish, which kind of made me want to make a whole bunch of them, but I don't have any more of that kind of yarn. Now I'm working on my first attempt at fair isle, using a hat pattern that one of the girls in my knitting group designed. I haven't actually gotten to the fair isle bit yet, as I'm just on the ribbing, but everyone assured me that it wasn't bad and I could do it. That's generally been the case with new knitting techniques I've learned, so I'm not too worried.
Today's plans include generally being pretty lazy. I think evacuating large quantities of blood from my nether regions entitles me to that. I might work on the stupid work presentation for a bit, and I'd really like to do some reading (I'm on the third Song of Ice and Fire book!), but that's probably about it. Hope you're all feeling less stressed than I am these days! :p
There's that whole mess going on, and then there's a lot of nonsense at work surrounding this mandatory PD presentation we have to give to the TAs on the last day before winter break if we want to get paid that day, and I am so ready for that shit to be over. I feel like I'm being pulled in 9 million directions every day and never getting done half of what I need to. I think overwhelmed and run down would be accurate descriptions of how I've felt lately. I need some rest and relaxation time. I was really seriously considering taking a sick day next week, just to give myself a day, but I don't think I can manage it at all without screwing up some responsibility at work. Blah. I know it's only two more weeks until break, but that's both a blessing and a curse, because there's still a lot of shit that needs to get done before then, namely this damn presentation that none of us even remotely want to do.
But break itself should be awesome. I'm going down to Jersey for the first time in 2 years, and I'll get to spend Christmas with my sister and see a bunch of friends I haven't seen in way too long, so it should be pretty great. And I think I may be able to spend some time with Kelly in Virginia as well, though I still need to touch base with her to confirm all the details of that piece.
Fortinos, where we usually do our grocery shopping, has started a points program where you earn points for certain things you buy, and the more you shop, the more the points offers are tailored to what you usually get. They only just started the program a couple weeks ago, but the points accumulate pretty fast. Every 1000 points equals $1, and you can start redeeming them once you hit 20,000 points, and then in increments of 10,000 after that. It only took us 3 shopping trips to hit that first 20,000, and on our trip last night, there was a bonus offer of 20,000 points for every $100 spent in the store. I couldn't tell you the last time Brad and I grocery shopped without spending over $100, so of course we got that bonus, which means that we've now essentially got $40 worth of free groceries next time we go shopping. Pretty sweet deal if you ask me!
In knitting news, I finished a really soft fluffy shawl using the mohair and silk yarn that Kit sent me in the spring, and it's really nice. I also knit a Mobius cowl for one of the teachers I work with, which was both the fastest and most magical piece of knitting ever. It took me a couple hours from start to finish, which kind of made me want to make a whole bunch of them, but I don't have any more of that kind of yarn. Now I'm working on my first attempt at fair isle, using a hat pattern that one of the girls in my knitting group designed. I haven't actually gotten to the fair isle bit yet, as I'm just on the ribbing, but everyone assured me that it wasn't bad and I could do it. That's generally been the case with new knitting techniques I've learned, so I'm not too worried.
Today's plans include generally being pretty lazy. I think evacuating large quantities of blood from my nether regions entitles me to that. I might work on the stupid work presentation for a bit, and I'd really like to do some reading (I'm on the third Song of Ice and Fire book!), but that's probably about it. Hope you're all feeling less stressed than I am these days! :p