"The feeling of rusty-spoons against my salad fingers is almost orgasmic."
Today Brit and I went up to Portland. We ACTUALLY found the store we were looking for. We were quite impressed by ourselves when we even found Portland...especially at one point when we went through a misterious tunnel...and ended up in a forest...headed towards the zoo? But we found it! Besides the fact we couldn't afford anything in the store...we still had a blast. In there for nearly 2 hours...we managed to try on some awesome plaid pants that I want ever so much. We are soo poor though...my large expenditure went towards a $16 turquoise shirt...and Brit? That wild thing...she got black. Well actually its greyish-black. Yep, then we had some amazing expensive pizza...which I happen to spill olive oil on (dammit!) then we left on another adventure to find our temporary home...Keizer.
Everything is soo amazing when it rains. Everything gets all beautiful...and makes me EXTREMELY happy. You can tell when a family adores their state when one points out its raining...and the rest of the group starts cheering and dancing. Lol ages from 16 to 88. It was awesome.
I do want to come home though, I want to see everyone. I miss my life in Eugene seeings how I've been in Salem like half the summer. My step-grampa Roop is like all sick with lung cancer...and thats awful and everything...but deep down...I kinda just want him to go. I know that sounds horrible...but honestley...he isn't happy...and he is making everyone else horrible. He is so anal, and has such a bad attitude. For example...Brit and I were sitting on there ever so squishy and expensive bed...and he started bitching to my Grandma "They have there feet on our bed!! Jackie, they are getting their feet all over our bed!!"...Brit and I look at each other...then at our feet and slowly back away from the bed. Everything is soo stressful here. Everyone just needs to relax a little...realize that when its your time to die, don't bitch about it and ruin everyone else's lives. And maybe for once try to make their lives a little more delightful.
So. I have come to the conclusion that when I am older and successful and have lots of money, I am going to move to a place that is rains A LOT, and then gracefully kill myself at the age of hmm...60..70 maybe. No use in wasting all my hard earned money on a couple years of unhealthy, sickly life. When my good fortune, could be going out to help the young of my family. Its not complicated people. Just be happy...and don't try to spread your problems over other people's lives...we have enough of our own. Thank you very much.
*take deep breath*
I feel a lot better.
Everything is soo amazing when it rains. Everything gets all beautiful...and makes me EXTREMELY happy. You can tell when a family adores their state when one points out its raining...and the rest of the group starts cheering and dancing. Lol ages from 16 to 88. It was awesome.
I do want to come home though, I want to see everyone. I miss my life in Eugene seeings how I've been in Salem like half the summer. My step-grampa Roop is like all sick with lung cancer...and thats awful and everything...but deep down...I kinda just want him to go. I know that sounds horrible...but honestley...he isn't happy...and he is making everyone else horrible. He is so anal, and has such a bad attitude. For example...Brit and I were sitting on there ever so squishy and expensive bed...and he started bitching to my Grandma "They have there feet on our bed!! Jackie, they are getting their feet all over our bed!!"...Brit and I look at each other...then at our feet and slowly back away from the bed. Everything is soo stressful here. Everyone just needs to relax a little...realize that when its your time to die, don't bitch about it and ruin everyone else's lives. And maybe for once try to make their lives a little more delightful.
So. I have come to the conclusion that when I am older and successful and have lots of money, I am going to move to a place that is rains A LOT, and then gracefully kill myself at the age of hmm...60..70 maybe. No use in wasting all my hard earned money on a couple years of unhealthy, sickly life. When my good fortune, could be going out to help the young of my family. Its not complicated people. Just be happy...and don't try to spread your problems over other people's lives...we have enough of our own. Thank you very much.
*take deep breath*
I feel a lot better.