"Say what you need to say..."
My first week of classes is over. 4 months until graduation. I can finally see the light. It is a beautiful thing.
Kailey and I are moving... again. Back to Moms for a couple of months to save some money. It's a sad situation. We both love this apartment so much. At the same time, it's the best plan for both of us. I can save money for a down payment on an apartment post grad. Kailey can save money for moving. Translation: life is happening whether we are ready for it or not.
Things with Jeff are as confusing as ever. I love the boy and still hope that he will decide that I am worth it. I understand his point of view though. I am trying really hard not to pressure him. I hope he follows his heart, wherever that may take him. I suppose I'm a die hard believer that our heart knows best. With everything that we deal with in this day and age our brains have less capacity to decipher love.... just kidding.... kind of. I feel sort of sad at the whole situation. He wants to have experiences that he may not have had in the past. I get that, It's just sad that he has never considered that he could have both. Whatever happened to your relationship being there for support and being there to have those experiences with? I know he's just very confused. Things that he does shows me that he does love me. His words say it too. Time will tell. "Better to have loved and lose than to have never loved at all." No matter how cheesy that is, it's the truth.
Mom has started classes too. Classically, she needs to tell me about everything. Ugh.
Kailey and I are moving... again. Back to Moms for a couple of months to save some money. It's a sad situation. We both love this apartment so much. At the same time, it's the best plan for both of us. I can save money for a down payment on an apartment post grad. Kailey can save money for moving. Translation: life is happening whether we are ready for it or not.
Things with Jeff are as confusing as ever. I love the boy and still hope that he will decide that I am worth it. I understand his point of view though. I am trying really hard not to pressure him. I hope he follows his heart, wherever that may take him. I suppose I'm a die hard believer that our heart knows best. With everything that we deal with in this day and age our brains have less capacity to decipher love.... just kidding.... kind of. I feel sort of sad at the whole situation. He wants to have experiences that he may not have had in the past. I get that, It's just sad that he has never considered that he could have both. Whatever happened to your relationship being there for support and being there to have those experiences with? I know he's just very confused. Things that he does shows me that he does love me. His words say it too. Time will tell. "Better to have loved and lose than to have never loved at all." No matter how cheesy that is, it's the truth.
Mom has started classes too. Classically, she needs to tell me about everything. Ugh.