who am I fooling?
I don't know what to do...I am so lost right now...If it was something I did...something I said why can we not work it out...? You told me you would never leave me...I believed you...You told me you would never hurt me again...I believed you...
I know you two are at least talking...maybe even fucking...I mean afterall she did say "I would sleep with everyone"...I never thought that ment MY fiancee...Well...I hope if you do or did or will...you go get tested for STD's...8 in an awefully high number for someone who isn't even legal yet...
I am so bitter and confused...
One minute I hate you then next minute I love you...all I want is to be in your arms with you telling me everything will be okay...I want that...again...
I know I would take you back in a heartbeat...even if I say I wouldn't...I love you too much...
I just want some honest answers...I would prefer them to be from Mike...
How can our love of years be thrown away? for nothing really...I told you I would stay in Florida...Canada was an opportunity not something that HAD to be done...
We fought the other day...I wanted more attention...I am sorry...all I wanted was for you to talk to me the hour at night you promised....but you would rather go out...I never asked you to talk on fridays and saturdays...I just wanted an email...and for you to tell me what went on...I don't think that was to much to ask...I never told you not to hang out with her...I told you I was uncomfortable with you being alone together...I wouldn't have been mad about the party if you would have told me about it...not kept quiet b/c you thought I would get mad...All I ever wanted was for you to be honest with me...I called to say Goodnight...that was all..I wasn't calling to talk for an hour about the same stuff...I was just calling to say goodnight...I wasn't mad that you didn't get online and I wasn't mad that you drank...I just wanted you to be honest with me...
IF I AM WRONG ABOUT YOU AND HIM...I AM SORRY FOR JUMPING TO CONCLUSIONS!...but right now...its looking like you two are back together...but again if you aren't I am sorry...
If there isn't another girl...I beg you to please reconsider US...I would move in with Jen...You could live where you wanted...we could start by dating and nothing serious...just going out every once in a while and then if we were starting to feel strong again we could move to boyfriend and girlfriend and see what happens...You would still have your free time with out me...I would have NO say so in who you hung out with and where you went...and same with you to me...Just take it slow and work up...If there is no one else...could you please consider that? We could start over from scratch and forget the past completely...we could get to know each other again...and just start over...IF there is noone else...PLEASE PLEASE...can we try this...I love you so much, more than words can ever possible show or tell...I love you with every ounce of me...Please reconsider us...I beg this of you...
"Everytime"
Britney Spears
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I GUESS I NEED YOU BABY!!!!!
MIKE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS!!! I THINK YOU STILL LOVE ME!!! I THINK YOU HURT TOO! I JUST KNOW YOU HIDE IT WELL!!! WHY GO A STRAY? WHY FIND SOMEONE NEW...WE WERE PERFECT TOGETHER ALL OUR HAPPINESS!!! WHY THROW AWAY OUR MEMORIES?
going to the beach
universal
PURPLE
making love
me cooking for you
taking care or each other when we were sick
Walgreens runs in the middle of the night for Ice Cream
sleeping in the same bed
you cumming in me
going to the movies
pictures I drew for you
our little notes for each other
CAMPING
drinking together
you taking care of me
me taking care of you
walking around Lake Eola
graduation night
when I spent those three nights at your house
stareing at each other at ACE
flirting
kissing
hugging
holding hands
OUR FIRST KISS! I was sitting on your bed...you touched your forehead to mine and our lips connected...it was wonderful...it was magic
the first time we made love
the first time I gave you head and wouldn't let you watch b/c I was nervouse...and you LOVED it.
fucking on the bathroom door
almost getting caught by your dad
OLIVE GARDEN
When you asked me to marry you...we walked into your bedroom and you said "You know I love you right?" ans then hit one knee and pulled a white box out of your pocket and said "Will you marry me"...I freaked...I started to cry and hugged you...it was the happiest day of my life...I was born again...as you said "Is that a yes?" and then we went out to eat...
When you asked me out...you wrote it out on a piece of paper...that said WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME? MAYBE YES NO...
the way you same to Susan's house that night when I was watching a movie
I would try to have dinner ready for you when you got home
GRILL KING
PINK
me waking you up by giving you head
you walking in on me when I would be in the shower
when we got the mustang together
when we got my engagement ring and wedding band
our KEY RINGS we used until we bought rings
dying your hair
dying my hair
you holding me in the night when I would cry
me holding you when you would cry
the day you helped me move from Robyns
me giving you head once while you drove
ME BUYING YOUR GUITARS for you
I loved listening to you play
you were writing me a song
when I made you banana bread muffins for a surprise
the way you would ask me if I liked it when we made love
the way you would kiss me and tell me you love me after we made love
the way it hurt last time I saw you, I was losing a piece of me...now I have lost a half of me and all of my heart
when I would make you ribs
when I would make you chicken wings
when you fucked me in a dress after dinner
mistltoe
when we couldn't wait to open our presents for christmas
dying easter eggs
dancing naked
me hitting my head at Universal
calling each other on lunch breaks
me calling you when I got home
your leather hat
me making apple vodka
BABY I MISS YOU!!! If you read this please look at what you are throwing away...and if you and her are getting back together look at what you will be missing...and I hope she would look at this a realize how much I made you happy...and how much you made me happy...and how unhappy you two were together...You told me all the time you two always fought...and that she wanted you to be someone you were not...I LOVE YOU FOR YOU!!! from your big belly that I love laying my head on to your dancing naked and your burping and farting...never taking a shower or brushing your teeth...to when you would take a shower and ask me to feel you hair b/c it was soft now...WHEN YOU SHAVED YOU BALLS FOR ME!!! We really never fought that much...not when I was home...This past week was made up frustrations from BOTH of us...you would get mad b/c you wanted to go out and me not me mad and I would get mad b/c I missed you...If we BOTH would have calmed down and looked at how short of a time until I got home we would have been okay...I still want us to be okay...
I have told you the reason I didn't like Ryan was I was jealous of the time you gave him...I told you that was stupid of me...If given the chance I would welcome him with open arms...I would talk to mark again...I would meet your other friends you wanted me to meet...MIKE I AM SORRY for what ever I did to cause you to throw our wonderful relationship away...PLEASE if there is noone else PLEASE give me another chance...
I LOVE YOU!!! I would have given you the world....I STILL will if given the chance!
I know you two are at least talking...maybe even fucking...I mean afterall she did say "I would sleep with everyone"...I never thought that ment MY fiancee...Well...I hope if you do or did or will...you go get tested for STD's...8 in an awefully high number for someone who isn't even legal yet...
I am so bitter and confused...
One minute I hate you then next minute I love you...all I want is to be in your arms with you telling me everything will be okay...I want that...again...
I know I would take you back in a heartbeat...even if I say I wouldn't...I love you too much...
I just want some honest answers...I would prefer them to be from Mike...
How can our love of years be thrown away? for nothing really...I told you I would stay in Florida...Canada was an opportunity not something that HAD to be done...
We fought the other day...I wanted more attention...I am sorry...all I wanted was for you to talk to me the hour at night you promised....but you would rather go out...I never asked you to talk on fridays and saturdays...I just wanted an email...and for you to tell me what went on...I don't think that was to much to ask...I never told you not to hang out with her...I told you I was uncomfortable with you being alone together...I wouldn't have been mad about the party if you would have told me about it...not kept quiet b/c you thought I would get mad...All I ever wanted was for you to be honest with me...I called to say Goodnight...that was all..I wasn't calling to talk for an hour about the same stuff...I was just calling to say goodnight...I wasn't mad that you didn't get online and I wasn't mad that you drank...I just wanted you to be honest with me...
IF I AM WRONG ABOUT YOU AND HIM...I AM SORRY FOR JUMPING TO CONCLUSIONS!...but right now...its looking like you two are back together...but again if you aren't I am sorry...
If there isn't another girl...I beg you to please reconsider US...I would move in with Jen...You could live where you wanted...we could start by dating and nothing serious...just going out every once in a while and then if we were starting to feel strong again we could move to boyfriend and girlfriend and see what happens...You would still have your free time with out me...I would have NO say so in who you hung out with and where you went...and same with you to me...Just take it slow and work up...If there is no one else...could you please consider that? We could start over from scratch and forget the past completely...we could get to know each other again...and just start over...IF there is noone else...PLEASE PLEASE...can we try this...I love you so much, more than words can ever possible show or tell...I love you with every ounce of me...Please reconsider us...I beg this of you...
"Everytime"
Britney Spears
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I GUESS I NEED YOU BABY!!!!!
MIKE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS!!! I THINK YOU STILL LOVE ME!!! I THINK YOU HURT TOO! I JUST KNOW YOU HIDE IT WELL!!! WHY GO A STRAY? WHY FIND SOMEONE NEW...WE WERE PERFECT TOGETHER ALL OUR HAPPINESS!!! WHY THROW AWAY OUR MEMORIES?
going to the beach
universal
PURPLE
making love
me cooking for you
taking care or each other when we were sick
Walgreens runs in the middle of the night for Ice Cream
sleeping in the same bed
you cumming in me
going to the movies
pictures I drew for you
our little notes for each other
CAMPING
drinking together
you taking care of me
me taking care of you
walking around Lake Eola
graduation night
when I spent those three nights at your house
stareing at each other at ACE
flirting
kissing
hugging
holding hands
OUR FIRST KISS! I was sitting on your bed...you touched your forehead to mine and our lips connected...it was wonderful...it was magic
the first time we made love
the first time I gave you head and wouldn't let you watch b/c I was nervouse...and you LOVED it.
fucking on the bathroom door
almost getting caught by your dad
OLIVE GARDEN
When you asked me to marry you...we walked into your bedroom and you said "You know I love you right?" ans then hit one knee and pulled a white box out of your pocket and said "Will you marry me"...I freaked...I started to cry and hugged you...it was the happiest day of my life...I was born again...as you said "Is that a yes?" and then we went out to eat...
When you asked me out...you wrote it out on a piece of paper...that said WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME? MAYBE YES NO...
the way you same to Susan's house that night when I was watching a movie
I would try to have dinner ready for you when you got home
GRILL KING
PINK
me waking you up by giving you head
you walking in on me when I would be in the shower
when we got the mustang together
when we got my engagement ring and wedding band
our KEY RINGS we used until we bought rings
dying your hair
dying my hair
you holding me in the night when I would cry
me holding you when you would cry
the day you helped me move from Robyns
me giving you head once while you drove
ME BUYING YOUR GUITARS for you
I loved listening to you play
you were writing me a song
when I made you banana bread muffins for a surprise
the way you would ask me if I liked it when we made love
the way you would kiss me and tell me you love me after we made love
the way it hurt last time I saw you, I was losing a piece of me...now I have lost a half of me and all of my heart
when I would make you ribs
when I would make you chicken wings
when you fucked me in a dress after dinner
mistltoe
when we couldn't wait to open our presents for christmas
dying easter eggs
dancing naked
me hitting my head at Universal
calling each other on lunch breaks
me calling you when I got home
your leather hat
me making apple vodka
BABY I MISS YOU!!! If you read this please look at what you are throwing away...and if you and her are getting back together look at what you will be missing...and I hope she would look at this a realize how much I made you happy...and how much you made me happy...and how unhappy you two were together...You told me all the time you two always fought...and that she wanted you to be someone you were not...I LOVE YOU FOR YOU!!! from your big belly that I love laying my head on to your dancing naked and your burping and farting...never taking a shower or brushing your teeth...to when you would take a shower and ask me to feel you hair b/c it was soft now...WHEN YOU SHAVED YOU BALLS FOR ME!!! We really never fought that much...not when I was home...This past week was made up frustrations from BOTH of us...you would get mad b/c you wanted to go out and me not me mad and I would get mad b/c I missed you...If we BOTH would have calmed down and looked at how short of a time until I got home we would have been okay...I still want us to be okay...
I have told you the reason I didn't like Ryan was I was jealous of the time you gave him...I told you that was stupid of me...If given the chance I would welcome him with open arms...I would talk to mark again...I would meet your other friends you wanted me to meet...MIKE I AM SORRY for what ever I did to cause you to throw our wonderful relationship away...PLEASE if there is noone else PLEASE give me another chance...
I LOVE YOU!!! I would have given you the world....I STILL will if given the chance!