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[canadian_dragon]

I want to do something crazy, I want to move somewhere where I don't know anyone again, like when I moved to Iowa or Edmonton, but I want to do it with a better attitude this time. When I moved to Edmonton I was just coming down off of an amazing and wild summer with my best friends and then they dropped me in Edmonton and I just felt abandoned and alone. This time when I move I want to go somewhere that I'm excited to be, I want to just hop in my car with my shit in the trunk and drive somewhere amazing. I want to be in a city, I would love to have the ocean around again but I would trade the ocean to move somewhere I love like Toronto. I just wish i wasn't trapped in this dead end town with no money, all I need is a little cash to get me gas and smokes for my trip and maybe a meal or two when I get there. I wouldn't even care if I had to sleep in my car for a while until I got settled in, I just hate the rut that I'm stuck in right now. I can't believe I've almost been in this fucking hole of a town for a year. scratch that almost, it has been a year. This was supposed to be a temporary thing, I was supposed to stop in Gibbons until I got my shit together a little and got myself off the drugs. Now look at me, I'm in no better condition now than I was when I showed up, I have no more money than I did back then, I have the same problems and I pretty much just got more depressed and confused.

Come spring when things warm up I'm out of here, I have a car now there shouldn't be anything stopping me. I'm going to go somewhere with lots of people to befriend, lots of girls to keep me entertained and just lots of everything that I fucking love. I am going to find my next city, and it might take a few stops but I'm going to finally find the place (in canada) that actually makes me happy.