waiting for the tylenol cold to kick in.
so yea im kinda sick. just been coughing and sneezing. hopefully not too bad. last time this year i had the full blown flu, stuck in bed for 3 days. not fun b\c it was my first time with the flu so i thought i had like meningitis or something. haha.
anyway. this week is juuuust about over. after tomorow at like 6 i can finally breathe. but until then the stress is still here and still got a lot to do tomorrow. but here i am trying to get the million things out of my mind that have been bugging me forever it seems. i have so much to say but it all comes out at once and doesnt make any sense. its like everyday i realize something new and this all begins to come together. but what good does it do me? hingsight is always 20/20 ya know. and i should have seen this coming. on a completely random separate tangent... in a way, i can see why people dont like. or maybe its that i dont like them..but in any event. i guess its hard to be friends, or good friends, with someone who just for the most part doesnt give a shit. dont get me wrong, i care about a lot. world peace, war, animals, and even small chidren. but what i dont give a shit about is 'who said what' and 'who did what'. ya know, its all so futile to waste time with that shit. if you want to know what someone did or said, just fucking ask them. social relationships are just a bunch of people in a circle who are just fucking eachother over. and its awesome how people assume that you dont know. c'mon bitch. if i hear you talking about someone else, why woudlnt you talk about me? and the 'truth' to you is not the real truth. its your subjective truth that you give off as objectivity. you arent fooling anyone. well, maybe only the fools. [props to me on that one ;)] but all in all. there is so much more to life than words of bullshit and meaningless actions. to be honest, i dont remember what happened in high school with who and what. and its only been 4 years. i had a friend since 5th grade, and there was a fight in 10th grade (more like a discrepency) and to this day we havent said one word to eachother. and to be honest, i dont remember what it ws that caused the rift. how this relates... in a yer from now, we all would have moved on [well, at least i hope people do...] and all the drama probaby wont matter. so why let it ruin your good time or even your future happiness for something that has no permanence?
its just something to think about.
anyway. this week is juuuust about over. after tomorow at like 6 i can finally breathe. but until then the stress is still here and still got a lot to do tomorrow. but here i am trying to get the million things out of my mind that have been bugging me forever it seems. i have so much to say but it all comes out at once and doesnt make any sense. its like everyday i realize something new and this all begins to come together. but what good does it do me? hingsight is always 20/20 ya know. and i should have seen this coming. on a completely random separate tangent... in a way, i can see why people dont like. or maybe its that i dont like them..but in any event. i guess its hard to be friends, or good friends, with someone who just for the most part doesnt give a shit. dont get me wrong, i care about a lot. world peace, war, animals, and even small chidren. but what i dont give a shit about is 'who said what' and 'who did what'. ya know, its all so futile to waste time with that shit. if you want to know what someone did or said, just fucking ask them. social relationships are just a bunch of people in a circle who are just fucking eachother over. and its awesome how people assume that you dont know. c'mon bitch. if i hear you talking about someone else, why woudlnt you talk about me? and the 'truth' to you is not the real truth. its your subjective truth that you give off as objectivity. you arent fooling anyone. well, maybe only the fools. [props to me on that one ;)] but all in all. there is so much more to life than words of bullshit and meaningless actions. to be honest, i dont remember what happened in high school with who and what. and its only been 4 years. i had a friend since 5th grade, and there was a fight in 10th grade (more like a discrepency) and to this day we havent said one word to eachother. and to be honest, i dont remember what it ws that caused the rift. how this relates... in a yer from now, we all would have moved on [well, at least i hope people do...] and all the drama probaby wont matter. so why let it ruin your good time or even your future happiness for something that has no permanence?
its just something to think about.