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i dind't like last night. last night i layed in my bed holding my heads and curled up into a ball because i just felt bad. and i cna't explain it, i don't know. i just feel bad.
i don't like it. i've started out this year horribely. not that i'm the kind of person that thinks if you start somethign bad it'll be bad, not that at all, but.. i don't know. i don't like it. i don't like anything.
i feel like dying my hair. i hope i don't do anything stupid. oh. i would. except i don't want to go to school tommorow and have everyone looking at me and asking me about my hair.
i just want to fade into the background and dissappear.
i'm an observer. i would be perfectly happy if i could spend my whole life sitting on top of a tower and watching the world pass me by. i wouldn't mind that i wasn't in it. i'd be fine just watching it. i wish i could do that. and not have to participate. just watch.
i don't like it. i've started out this year horribely. not that i'm the kind of person that thinks if you start somethign bad it'll be bad, not that at all, but.. i don't know. i don't like it. i don't like anything.
i feel like dying my hair. i hope i don't do anything stupid. oh. i would. except i don't want to go to school tommorow and have everyone looking at me and asking me about my hair.
i just want to fade into the background and dissappear.
i'm an observer. i would be perfectly happy if i could spend my whole life sitting on top of a tower and watching the world pass me by. i wouldn't mind that i wasn't in it. i'd be fine just watching it. i wish i could do that. and not have to participate. just watch.