What's in peanut butter...like, how do they make it?
Emma's 7 months old(as of yesterday)! Holy crap. And she's almost crawling...doing the rocking thing on her hands and knees. Right now she's asleep though which is nice...
Brandon let me sleep in today by waking up w/ Emma and feeding her. It was awesome!
It was cold and rainy and windy today in Georgetown...a lot like how I've been feeling lately so the weather and I have gone together quite well today. Yesterday we went to church and to Louisville to lunch @ Chad and Jena's house. I played Zoo Vet on their computer w/ Jodi who is pretty cool for a barely 8-year-old. Her twin bro Noah was teaching Emma about Star Wars light saber colors and such...that was pretty funny. We then went to John and Janet's so BMB could set their new computer up and my goodness if it didn't take 3 hours for Janet to understand stuff. I played the organ for the last 45 minutes or so which was nice, I haven't played piano for that long in forever. I was playing Christmas songs. I tried to teach Emily Heart and Soul but she couldn't pay attn long enough so I told her to go watch Emma and teach her to crawl. I can't believe I was ever a piano teacher. I can't display enough patience. I think I'd be okay if it were Emma but man, Emily drives a girl crazy. BMB was taking a nap while we were at Jena's and Emily went in and started talking to him, for 15 minutes...He WAS TAKING A NAP. Now until Emily has to go back home and live w/ Brandon while he's sleepy and annoyed about some 10 year old yapping at him, she needs to leave him the hell alone. Anyway, then we went to Kim and Larry's to watch Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy.
Oh, and before we left to come back to Gtown, freaking deer warnings. EVERYONE (seriously, I'm not exaggerating this) warned us about deer. As soon as we pulled out of his mom's driveway I told Brandon that I felt this eery feeling that there were deer w/ sticks and stones and other stuff that were going to come beat the crap out of us while we were on our way home, like, they weren't just deer anymore, they were gAnGsTa deer. They were going to beat us to death, just because his family kept telling us to be on the lookout for deer. Badass deer? fahrreal you better believe.
I bought Halloween candy today. I've eaten most of it. Emma's watched me too so whenever I walk over to the table where the candy is, she reaches up and makes noises. She thinks she's going to get some candy. :)
I want to dress up this year but no $$ so no costume...I'll probably wear all black and...yeah, pass out candy. LoL. I don't know what Emma will do...cute dress I guess...and a princess hat or something. I don't know. :-D
Okay, I'm out of here...Yellow Tail Shiraz-Cabernet is calling my cheap ass to the coffeetable and I shall veg and watch bad sitcoms from now until about...I don't know. I need to eat something real...some meat.
I'm still mourning my Mamma. I still want to call her and see what she's doing...a wordsearch or piecing a laprobe together...There's another memorial service for ppl who have died in the last year or so at the funeral home and my grandma is going by herself b/c my mom and Jim are going to Michigan that weekend. It's the first weekend in November. I am going to ask to have it off from work so I can go with her because that is too hard. I can't stay here in KY knowing my grandma is in Indiana on a Sunday afternoon, getting ready to go pay respect to her mom who just passed only two months ago and going by herself at that. I feel so stupid crying about this still...I just know she'd still be alive if she wouldn't have caught that infection. No, I don't know that, but I want to believe it and I know I shouldn't. I know I should just let go and keep on going on w/ my life. I just keep thinking this will be the first everything w/o my mamma. Thanksgiving, Christmas...no homemade noodles, no blackberry pie, no gooseberry pie...nothing. I know, I know, everyone goes through this when they lose someone, but I've only lost one other person this close to me and that was Matthew. And I know how not over that I'll ever be and it scares me how much this hurts again. I was at WalMart and saw tulle and almost cried. She used to make 'scratchies' out of tulle. You use them to scrub dishes. She made me one when I was little for my play kitchen. LoL. I'm sure it's still in a box somewhere. She's made them for me since then, but I just remember her coming to our house in Coal City one day and handing me a teeny little kid scratchy so that I could wash my dishes after making dinner for my dolls.
And every night when I put Emma down to sleep, I pull her little baby afghan over her, that way Mamma's watching over her while she sleeps.
Brandon let me sleep in today by waking up w/ Emma and feeding her. It was awesome!
It was cold and rainy and windy today in Georgetown...a lot like how I've been feeling lately so the weather and I have gone together quite well today. Yesterday we went to church and to Louisville to lunch @ Chad and Jena's house. I played Zoo Vet on their computer w/ Jodi who is pretty cool for a barely 8-year-old. Her twin bro Noah was teaching Emma about Star Wars light saber colors and such...that was pretty funny. We then went to John and Janet's so BMB could set their new computer up and my goodness if it didn't take 3 hours for Janet to understand stuff. I played the organ for the last 45 minutes or so which was nice, I haven't played piano for that long in forever. I was playing Christmas songs. I tried to teach Emily Heart and Soul but she couldn't pay attn long enough so I told her to go watch Emma and teach her to crawl. I can't believe I was ever a piano teacher. I can't display enough patience. I think I'd be okay if it were Emma but man, Emily drives a girl crazy. BMB was taking a nap while we were at Jena's and Emily went in and started talking to him, for 15 minutes...He WAS TAKING A NAP. Now until Emily has to go back home and live w/ Brandon while he's sleepy and annoyed about some 10 year old yapping at him, she needs to leave him the hell alone. Anyway, then we went to Kim and Larry's to watch Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy.
Oh, and before we left to come back to Gtown, freaking deer warnings. EVERYONE (seriously, I'm not exaggerating this) warned us about deer. As soon as we pulled out of his mom's driveway I told Brandon that I felt this eery feeling that there were deer w/ sticks and stones and other stuff that were going to come beat the crap out of us while we were on our way home, like, they weren't just deer anymore, they were gAnGsTa deer. They were going to beat us to death, just because his family kept telling us to be on the lookout for deer. Badass deer? fahrreal you better believe.
I bought Halloween candy today. I've eaten most of it. Emma's watched me too so whenever I walk over to the table where the candy is, she reaches up and makes noises. She thinks she's going to get some candy. :)
I want to dress up this year but no $$ so no costume...I'll probably wear all black and...yeah, pass out candy. LoL. I don't know what Emma will do...cute dress I guess...and a princess hat or something. I don't know. :-D
Okay, I'm out of here...Yellow Tail Shiraz-Cabernet is calling my cheap ass to the coffeetable and I shall veg and watch bad sitcoms from now until about...I don't know. I need to eat something real...some meat.
I'm still mourning my Mamma. I still want to call her and see what she's doing...a wordsearch or piecing a laprobe together...There's another memorial service for ppl who have died in the last year or so at the funeral home and my grandma is going by herself b/c my mom and Jim are going to Michigan that weekend. It's the first weekend in November. I am going to ask to have it off from work so I can go with her because that is too hard. I can't stay here in KY knowing my grandma is in Indiana on a Sunday afternoon, getting ready to go pay respect to her mom who just passed only two months ago and going by herself at that. I feel so stupid crying about this still...I just know she'd still be alive if she wouldn't have caught that infection. No, I don't know that, but I want to believe it and I know I shouldn't. I know I should just let go and keep on going on w/ my life. I just keep thinking this will be the first everything w/o my mamma. Thanksgiving, Christmas...no homemade noodles, no blackberry pie, no gooseberry pie...nothing. I know, I know, everyone goes through this when they lose someone, but I've only lost one other person this close to me and that was Matthew. And I know how not over that I'll ever be and it scares me how much this hurts again. I was at WalMart and saw tulle and almost cried. She used to make 'scratchies' out of tulle. You use them to scrub dishes. She made me one when I was little for my play kitchen. LoL. I'm sure it's still in a box somewhere. She's made them for me since then, but I just remember her coming to our house in Coal City one day and handing me a teeny little kid scratchy so that I could wash my dishes after making dinner for my dolls.
And every night when I put Emma down to sleep, I pull her little baby afghan over her, that way Mamma's watching over her while she sleeps.