Ghosts of my life
I dont know why i keep on writing maybe its just my way of dealing with things I dont know but ever since niki moved in its always like world war 3 over here with those kids I mean the boy listens ok but the girls a demon from hell i believe Im not to sure why i took the stupid job maybe its because i need money but at the moment moneys not worth it.Lets see my whole rooms invaded in the night time which is why i dont let them in here during the day GOSH! I dont know anymore my additudes changed heaps since Like a week ago Im more evil then ever Lets see i almost have slept in every room in my house except the bathroom yeah ive been sleeping in the kitchen which is ok but still. Gosh i dunno something has to be done Im going mad! I havent played ddr in like 2 weeks It makes me so mad I put my heart and soul into that game and then we had to freaking move down here and there went all my talent >.<, Then again i dont think i ever had any talent even my friend matt is getting better than me Oh just forget it Im tired of people i dunno My feelings are everywhere or no where at all im not to sure sometimes i feel more then other times.One things for sure I think im destined to be alone forever I mean look at troy Gosh hes never on anymore and i try to get on to see if hes on and stuff and i emailed him and did he even email me back this year? NO! I dunno sometimes i feel like just dumping him But then i remember things he says and it makes me so happy and that just makes it worth it all. I know i have to try to save up money so i can go to the uk next year with my dad and sis but i can bet money we wont go. :( Oh well screw this I miss troy and if he dont come back soon im gonna go nuts! I sometimes wonder what my life would be like if i never met him.Kinda hard to imagine i suppose because hes so deep in my heart. Then again sometimes you have to let that part of you go for your own good Im not to sure what to do anymore but im sure i will figure it out.
*Love is gone*
*Love is gone*