Last Journal Entry ever!

[can_be_perfect]

Well lets see the first night im back im Totally mess everything up for myself and now I feel like crap about it gosh i didnt mean it and im sorry You know who you are. I dont know what i was thinking ! I was being totally stupid And im sorry! Nadia says she deserves to go to hell for what she did But Right now She has no idea what its like being in hell while your still alive * sighs* I always mess everything up I even almost lost my friend matt Im such a screw up good for nothing moronic idiot! The harder I try to fix things the more It just screws up Yeah i guess i could of made up something to tell you and believe me I thought about it but i figure that would make it worse Im sorry and Lord knows i dont wanna lose someone like you. But anyway this is the last entry i will ever write I dont think i will ever be back online Anyway unless Someone talks to me ( you know who you are) But anyway Gosh i never thought id lose somebody like you Oh my gosh Im sorry I didnt even wanna say that at all I have no clue why i did I really wanted to tell you something else more like ask you Im such A moron and this time Im gonna pay for it Something worse than death to me anyway. I knew i could never be happy no matter what and guess what im right *sighs* Oh well at least my dog still loves me no matter what she loves me unconditaly and true She will always love me I also got my family so ill survive Just kinda not the same and Im not going to ever be the same again Matt always is right * growls* I should of cared just not so much so just in case anything happened I would not get hurt * laughs* Kinda too late for that isnt it now? Oh well Ill be back in a week and if the person i wanted to emails me or anything i will be returning otherwise Ill never be back on I dont have the heart to come back so Ill be saying bye to the internet for good Huh Just to think i could hate myself even more. * sighs*

I told you forever wasent going to last that long ( right troy?)

Yours truly,

Yumi Chan