Hello 2014; goodbye 2013
2013 was no easy year. It started with a huge struggle in the form of a job. It was a personal challenge to cope and adapt to the way things were done, and I gave up early in the year. Due to circumstances, I stayed on however and by the wonders of God, He poured out wisdom and strength and pulled me through. I remember incentivizing myself with a MacBook to stay on at least a year. It was extremely difficult. I felt utter helplessness at times and needed much assurance. As it turns out now, I am still in the same job and enjoying the newfound friendships with colleagues and managing fairly well in my role. The first year performance appraisal was smooth and I do find my character being sharpened by God as He points out the one flaw in me that in recent years seem to have developed quite unexpectedly - my tolerance or lack of it. I look back on how I progressed in this job with much wonder and am really thankful and grateful to Jesus for seeing me through. He really brought me through it all.
Aside from that, I found new friends in the workplace. In such an environment it is a huge blessing indeed to be able to find folks whom you can click with and work well with. They were partly the reason why I chose to stay and today I do not regret changing my mind back then. My dears Syahidah, Vic, Shini, and Michelle, you are very much a blessing in my life. It is a great joy to work with each of you and you make work easier and something I do not dread. Thank you dears; you are my blessing from Jesus.
I learnt to withhold judgement, to not judge people so quickly. We always size people up when we first meet them or sometimes before we even meet them, through the things we hear others say about them. In this workplace, we tend to do that very often and it has always been my personal stand to not judge anybody until I encounter them myself. It was very difficult to not fall into this quick sizing up of people and judging them far too quickly and I kept reminding myself of this. In fact, it is something I have to learn to be able to undo. Somehow, once I judge a person and condemn them to the depths (hee hee there are some), it is almost very difficult for me to show them any bit of respect. This I really have to learn because it showed up so apparently and definitively in recent years.
2013 has been a fairly neutral year with not much highs and lows. Most of the difficult times were caused in part by my own personality and I have set some pretty lofty objectives in becoming a better person. Effective anger management and the ability to handle disappointments in a non-destructive manner. I sometimes wonder if this all finds its way back to self-esteem issues, but oh well, I will probably look back on this in a few years time and denote the journey that will be visible to me by then.
From the start of the year, I had been looking forward to it ending. I am glad that 2013 has wrapped up, fairly well. It has not been an easy year but it didn't hold massive challenges in comparison with other years for me. It did however surface many deep-rooted personality and character traits which I deem as flaws and I despaired as I realized how much I was hurting the ones I loved through myself. It was not easy coming to that realization.
Thank you Jesus for another year. Thank you for the people you have placed in my life to remind me of your love and presence in my life, as my guide, my shield, and my provider. Please continue to mold me and make me more like you cuz I really want to do what is right and pleasing in your eyes. Where I am in my workplace, I want to be a bearer of your light of truth and a bringer of your joy to those around me. I commit the new year ahead 2014 and choose to start this year with this thanksgiving and in gratitude of your love. Thank you for loving me Jesus. I love you too. In Your Name, Amen.
2014, here I come :)
Aside from that, I found new friends in the workplace. In such an environment it is a huge blessing indeed to be able to find folks whom you can click with and work well with. They were partly the reason why I chose to stay and today I do not regret changing my mind back then. My dears Syahidah, Vic, Shini, and Michelle, you are very much a blessing in my life. It is a great joy to work with each of you and you make work easier and something I do not dread. Thank you dears; you are my blessing from Jesus.
I learnt to withhold judgement, to not judge people so quickly. We always size people up when we first meet them or sometimes before we even meet them, through the things we hear others say about them. In this workplace, we tend to do that very often and it has always been my personal stand to not judge anybody until I encounter them myself. It was very difficult to not fall into this quick sizing up of people and judging them far too quickly and I kept reminding myself of this. In fact, it is something I have to learn to be able to undo. Somehow, once I judge a person and condemn them to the depths (hee hee there are some), it is almost very difficult for me to show them any bit of respect. This I really have to learn because it showed up so apparently and definitively in recent years.
2013 has been a fairly neutral year with not much highs and lows. Most of the difficult times were caused in part by my own personality and I have set some pretty lofty objectives in becoming a better person. Effective anger management and the ability to handle disappointments in a non-destructive manner. I sometimes wonder if this all finds its way back to self-esteem issues, but oh well, I will probably look back on this in a few years time and denote the journey that will be visible to me by then.
From the start of the year, I had been looking forward to it ending. I am glad that 2013 has wrapped up, fairly well. It has not been an easy year but it didn't hold massive challenges in comparison with other years for me. It did however surface many deep-rooted personality and character traits which I deem as flaws and I despaired as I realized how much I was hurting the ones I loved through myself. It was not easy coming to that realization.
Thank you Jesus for another year. Thank you for the people you have placed in my life to remind me of your love and presence in my life, as my guide, my shield, and my provider. Please continue to mold me and make me more like you cuz I really want to do what is right and pleasing in your eyes. Where I am in my workplace, I want to be a bearer of your light of truth and a bringer of your joy to those around me. I commit the new year ahead 2014 and choose to start this year with this thanksgiving and in gratitude of your love. Thank you for loving me Jesus. I love you too. In Your Name, Amen.
2014, here I come :)