2012 a dramatic year
There have been a number of life defining moments this year. Thank you, Jesus, for another year that is wrapping up soon.
1) Series of interviews at work place on management issues, which I'm not sure whether anything positive resulted. It sparked off an entire series of meetings to clear the air but the spirit of addressing issues didn't seem to surface. Instead it became a means to identify folks who disagree, instead of allowing dissent for positive outcomes, it turned into a weeding out season. Sadly, many personal moral values were also disregarded and the situation seemed worse.
2) I walked with my buddy through 1 of the toughest times of her life when her dad's health condition deteriorated. The painful cries in that moment still echo in my ears. When something triggers the memory, I still feel my throat tightening as I struggle to control the tears as I felt the deep intense sorrow in her. I hoped that I can be counted on as a buddy in need.
3) When someone brings out the worst in you, stay away from them else you become just as ugly and unconsciously changing for the worse. I resigned in much desperation for an awakening of management. It still is a constant journey and reminder to rest the situation in the mighty arms of God.
4) The repercussions of my actions reached far and broad. In my rash impatience, my radical moves brought about much harm and hurt to people around me - people I claim to love. There is no denying that I blame myself for it. It is also true that it happened as it did because of me. I am upset with myself for not handling it wisely and bringing down so many others along with me. I am sorry, dear friends. Though you may try to comfort me by saying things would not have been better otherwise, but truth is, nobody knows the "what ifs" had I not done what I did. Thinking I was standing for justice and speaking against the oppressors, I foolishly thought that was the best course of action. This earth doesn't reward justice, truth, and honesty. Men are greedy for power. It is a lesson I will learn and must learn to handle difficult situations and unreasonable people who will stop at nothing to ruthlessly achieve their personal selfish ideals and ambitions. There is a lot more to this world than I know. Nevertheless, I still wanna say that I am sorry to my friends for my folly.
5) My second nephew came into this world and he is absolutely adorable. The 2 boys are a joy to have and to love. Lucius and Jedd, my lovely nephews whom I dearly love and will protect against anyone who dares to lay a finger on them.
In all, I took on 3 different jobs this year. The exposure and learning has been varied and this has been a year of gaining much new knowledge. In the process of job switching, I got to meet many new people and have our lives crossing. May each of you come to know Jesus who loves you very much and who cares for you.
I am grateful and very thankful to my family for walking through a traumatic year with me as I struggled through the challenges in my life. They listened when I was angry and upset. They supported my decisions. My Mom will cook food that we like, taking all our fussy requirements into consideration.
I learnt an important age-old lesson on appreciation. It's strange how we teach children to say "Please" and "Thank you" but hardly do it ourselves. I witnessed how often "Thank you" would be exchanged by a married couple and she said, "The day I think that I don't have to say thank you and that he should do it for me because we are married is the day I have lost it. He doesn't have to do it. I should not take him for granted." I started a habit of saying thank you for even the most trivial of things such as my Mom cooking dinner for us, someone washing the dishes after meals, holding open the door or the elevator. There are many things we can appreciate each other for and nothing is too trivial to utter a word of thanks. It may seem overdone at first but once it becomes a habit, it comes naturally and is really something pleasant to the one who is being appreciated. Never ever take anyone or anything they do for granted. Recognize them and appreciate them. It doesn't cost anything to say 2 words.
To my buddy who had her toughest year ever, thank you for believing in me when many others deemed me guilty. You know my character full well and you never once doubted my integrity. I can never thank you for protecting me and shielding me at your own expense and I am sorry, more than words can express, for all you had to go through because of my foolish acts. Thank you for never condemning me and always forgiving me no matter how many times I fail.
Whatever 2012 has brought my way, I entrust it all to you, Jesus. This last 2 weeks have been a great challenge as I find myself struggling every day at my new job. Please grant me wisdom and help me to absorb all the new knowledge so I can get up to speed quickly on everything. I wanna excel. I wanna do well in my work. Please help me. Please guide and pave my way ahead in the year 2013. Help me to be a light and salt for you, pointing people towards you through my life and actions. May my words, deeds, and lifestyle bring glory and honour to your name. Thank you for loving me, Jesus. I'm glad that I read your word once through and that I kept my promise to you in having a regular conversation with you, using the notebook as a clear reminder so I will not be distracted. These interventions have been most useful in keeping my focused on you. Thank you for planting these ideas in my head. I love you, Jesus. Help me to always do right so that you will be proud of me. Be my God and Lord of my life in 2013 and the years ahead. I commit everything good and bad that has happened in 2012 to you. In your sovereignty, I believe you will turn all the bad that men intended for good. Thank you for your faithfulness and your unfailing promise of unconditional love for me. I love love you, Jesus.
Bring on 2013!!!
1) Series of interviews at work place on management issues, which I'm not sure whether anything positive resulted. It sparked off an entire series of meetings to clear the air but the spirit of addressing issues didn't seem to surface. Instead it became a means to identify folks who disagree, instead of allowing dissent for positive outcomes, it turned into a weeding out season. Sadly, many personal moral values were also disregarded and the situation seemed worse.
2) I walked with my buddy through 1 of the toughest times of her life when her dad's health condition deteriorated. The painful cries in that moment still echo in my ears. When something triggers the memory, I still feel my throat tightening as I struggle to control the tears as I felt the deep intense sorrow in her. I hoped that I can be counted on as a buddy in need.
3) When someone brings out the worst in you, stay away from them else you become just as ugly and unconsciously changing for the worse. I resigned in much desperation for an awakening of management. It still is a constant journey and reminder to rest the situation in the mighty arms of God.
4) The repercussions of my actions reached far and broad. In my rash impatience, my radical moves brought about much harm and hurt to people around me - people I claim to love. There is no denying that I blame myself for it. It is also true that it happened as it did because of me. I am upset with myself for not handling it wisely and bringing down so many others along with me. I am sorry, dear friends. Though you may try to comfort me by saying things would not have been better otherwise, but truth is, nobody knows the "what ifs" had I not done what I did. Thinking I was standing for justice and speaking against the oppressors, I foolishly thought that was the best course of action. This earth doesn't reward justice, truth, and honesty. Men are greedy for power. It is a lesson I will learn and must learn to handle difficult situations and unreasonable people who will stop at nothing to ruthlessly achieve their personal selfish ideals and ambitions. There is a lot more to this world than I know. Nevertheless, I still wanna say that I am sorry to my friends for my folly.
5) My second nephew came into this world and he is absolutely adorable. The 2 boys are a joy to have and to love. Lucius and Jedd, my lovely nephews whom I dearly love and will protect against anyone who dares to lay a finger on them.
In all, I took on 3 different jobs this year. The exposure and learning has been varied and this has been a year of gaining much new knowledge. In the process of job switching, I got to meet many new people and have our lives crossing. May each of you come to know Jesus who loves you very much and who cares for you.
I am grateful and very thankful to my family for walking through a traumatic year with me as I struggled through the challenges in my life. They listened when I was angry and upset. They supported my decisions. My Mom will cook food that we like, taking all our fussy requirements into consideration.
I learnt an important age-old lesson on appreciation. It's strange how we teach children to say "Please" and "Thank you" but hardly do it ourselves. I witnessed how often "Thank you" would be exchanged by a married couple and she said, "The day I think that I don't have to say thank you and that he should do it for me because we are married is the day I have lost it. He doesn't have to do it. I should not take him for granted." I started a habit of saying thank you for even the most trivial of things such as my Mom cooking dinner for us, someone washing the dishes after meals, holding open the door or the elevator. There are many things we can appreciate each other for and nothing is too trivial to utter a word of thanks. It may seem overdone at first but once it becomes a habit, it comes naturally and is really something pleasant to the one who is being appreciated. Never ever take anyone or anything they do for granted. Recognize them and appreciate them. It doesn't cost anything to say 2 words.
To my buddy who had her toughest year ever, thank you for believing in me when many others deemed me guilty. You know my character full well and you never once doubted my integrity. I can never thank you for protecting me and shielding me at your own expense and I am sorry, more than words can express, for all you had to go through because of my foolish acts. Thank you for never condemning me and always forgiving me no matter how many times I fail.
Whatever 2012 has brought my way, I entrust it all to you, Jesus. This last 2 weeks have been a great challenge as I find myself struggling every day at my new job. Please grant me wisdom and help me to absorb all the new knowledge so I can get up to speed quickly on everything. I wanna excel. I wanna do well in my work. Please help me. Please guide and pave my way ahead in the year 2013. Help me to be a light and salt for you, pointing people towards you through my life and actions. May my words, deeds, and lifestyle bring glory and honour to your name. Thank you for loving me, Jesus. I'm glad that I read your word once through and that I kept my promise to you in having a regular conversation with you, using the notebook as a clear reminder so I will not be distracted. These interventions have been most useful in keeping my focused on you. Thank you for planting these ideas in my head. I love you, Jesus. Help me to always do right so that you will be proud of me. Be my God and Lord of my life in 2013 and the years ahead. I commit everything good and bad that has happened in 2012 to you. In your sovereignty, I believe you will turn all the bad that men intended for good. Thank you for your faithfulness and your unfailing promise of unconditional love for me. I love love you, Jesus.
Bring on 2013!!!