YFCz....
So....
I'm not sure how to feel about this.
Is it a real disbandment?
Is it a hiatus?
Is it trolling?
I wish I knew for certain.
And I know Takumi even wrote on his blog that it's a disbandment, it's written there plain as day.
But I still can't seem to convince myself that it's the truth.
Maybe I just don't want to accept it.
Maybe I would if I heard it from G.
It probably seems strange, but I for one am not upset that they never came to the Americas.
It was the last thing on my mind actually, until I read a couple of reactions and realized that they didn't.
I guess it's because we've been following them so closely with all the blogs, tweets, pics and vids..
And that we've seen so many performances and interviews and gotten to know the members so well, that it just doesn't feel like they never came.
To me, they were always here.
Maybe not physically, but where it mattered most.
In my thoughts, in my heart.
I guess.. in a lot of ways I'm sad and disappointed though.
I knew that YFCz would end one day, at least with a postponement of activities because of all the other projects everyone has going on.
And I figured that hiatus would last for a while.
But I didn't expect it so soon.
The word disbandment is so final, it hurts. It dissolves any hope for a return.
But maybe it's better this way. To end it now, before that hope begins to take over and consume.
Some people have said there could always be a reunion or whatever, but that still doesn't make anything easier...
My first thoughts after reading the news, were on the victims.
YFCz were supposed to be there to support the victims of 3/11 for years to come, right? To support SYH and everything, a constant reminder of that day so no one would forget what happened.
So don't call it a disbandment, at the very least for them.
What you guys did for them this past year was incredible, and no one's going to forget that of course.
But I don't know... calling it a disbandment seems to put an end to all the future efforts too. And that doesn't sit well in my mind.
Not that I'm blaming YFCz or accusing them of abandoning their fans or the victims or anything... I just think it would be nice to have those thoughts burning on for a long time to come.
And I'm hoping it does, whenever someone listens to their music or remembers this past year of YFCz.
Above all else, I'm going to miss seeing these seven men together all the time.
They've all become so precious to me, the band wouldn't be the same without any one of them.
If it's a real disbandment, then I will probably cry, but be proud of all they've accomplished and that I have physical evidence of that accomplishment.
If it's a hiatus, I will wait for them to reunite someday with open arms.
If they're trolling, I'm gonna table flip and laugh my ass off. LOL
Anyway, just my thoughts.