i take the poison take the pity.
yeah. i haven't had much time in each place. there's always this pressure to depart for the next destination. i'm glad i get to be free of that. -- Vishal on his 6 week Kerouacian experience.
recently [well, even moreso recently i guess] this idea has become a nice metaphor for the life of milla. except for that last line cuz i don't think i'll ever be free of it. i've been running myself to the ground so much that i fainted friday night at the troubadour show that i had been looking forward to for months. and last night i was so fatigued i literally could not bring myself to walk down the stairs from mike's apartment to my car - much less to drive to long beach to see tricia visiting all the way from across the country.
i try to stifle the uninfluential voice my body employs when it can no longer endure the load my mind delegates it. but i can't keep pushing at 150%. it's not sustainable.
too much sighing already. bleh.
recently [well, even moreso recently i guess] this idea has become a nice metaphor for the life of milla. except for that last line cuz i don't think i'll ever be free of it. i've been running myself to the ground so much that i fainted friday night at the troubadour show that i had been looking forward to for months. and last night i was so fatigued i literally could not bring myself to walk down the stairs from mike's apartment to my car - much less to drive to long beach to see tricia visiting all the way from across the country.
i try to stifle the uninfluential voice my body employs when it can no longer endure the load my mind delegates it. but i can't keep pushing at 150%. it's not sustainable.
too much sighing already. bleh.