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Skandar has a thing about hands.
Actually, this is was his first clue toward the realisation he might be gay.
He was nine at the time and rough playing with Jim on the playground. Jim is older. He is nearly ten and it show. Everything about him is big.
He has big feet, big clothes and is big himself.
More importantly, he has big hands.
One afternoon, they are mock fighting. They grabb and pull at each other Jim's tall hands hold him face down and suddenly, Skandar got hard.
Of course, being nine and in public,Skandar is hightly embarassed. He squirms until he broke free and run away. He hide until the ring for class time and resolves to never went against Jim again.
Still, it is the start.
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After that,there is George's hands.
George is very clever with his hands. He can do and undo complicated knots faster then any of the other boys at school.
It is fascinating.
Skandar doesn't like George very much because he brags to everybody he is going to be in the navy when he is older. Well, Skandar is going to be a doctor AND he was in a TV show last year. Doesn't means Skandar has to talk about it all the time. Mom told him everybody is intersted in different things and it is not because you are interested in something it means everbody else is.
George, obviously, hasn't got the memo.
Skandar think about George's hands all the time but one night, he dream of them. They are doing things to his body he doesn't understand and it agitate him so much he wake up. When he does, he has a hard on. He had others before, so he know how to take care of it. He is pretty sure having a hard on because of an other boy's hands is not normal but he take care of it anyway and go back to sleep.
Skandar is twelve and met Adam.
Adam is an intern on the set of Ferrari and is seventeen. He got strong hands. When he shake Skandar's hands, Skandar feel his warm grip on his skin for the rest of the day.
He follows Adam all the time so he can get into accidental contact with his hands. He wishes for their grip, yearns for it. One day, he hears Adam complains to an old girl that 'the midget' is stalking him everywhere. Skandar is humiliated and never seek him again.
But when he leaves and shakes hands with the crew, he can't help but enjoy the warm grip of Adam's strong hands.
Skandar is fourteen and one of the stars of Narnia.
There is Jeremy who is twenty two and assistant camera man, William who is sixteen and an upper-class man, David who look twenty something and is the older brother of the girl begging him to sign her poster.
Skandar is fourteen and gay. Not experimenting, confused or bi. Gay.
He doesn't relish the talk with his family.
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Matt's hands are small. They are fifteen and supposed to be studying but are giving each other hands jobs instead.
Matt is panting too heavily in his face, his hands don't cover enought of Skandar's dick and his grip is too frantic to be really satisfying.
Still, beggars can't be chooser and there isn't too many boys he knows who are enthusiast about masturbating another boy.
He hopes his mother and sister don't get back too early from shopping.
Josh give better hands job. Skandar supposes it come with the territory because Josh is seventeen and experimented.
Josh is handsome, which is a change from the boys Skandar usually hook up with, and really like Skandar. He takes him to fast-foods and cinemas, touch him at every opportunity and give him blow jobs, too.
Skandar should be happier then he is about it.
The problem is Josh has rought hands. Really rought and callused hands. Everytime Josh touch him, it left him feeling as thought his dick has been abused rather then appreciated.
Eventually, Skandar get sick of having troubles tucking his dick into his pants because it's too sore and end things.
Josh doesn't take it well but Skandar doesn't care. There are limits.
He doesn't think of Will's hands. Some things are just not on.
Megan has huge hands and is bigger than him. Skandar is nearly seventeen and vows to never drink again. No matter how much a girl look like a boy, when it come to dick, boys do know best.
Edmund has good looking hands but is forty, his teacher and has the name of his character in Narnia. Skandar wish the thought never cross his mind because it is too weird.
The boy from the Rachel's birthday party make him feel better thought it's not a bit messy.
Then there is Ben.
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Ben is Older with the big o that imply ten years older.
He is beautiful and turn heads wherever he goes. He is talented and intimidating. Or would be if he wasn't also a bit weird, absolutely unself-consciencious about it, and encourages you to share weirdness and be silly with him. He makes people feel good and special, and Anna and Georgie giggles at times.
He has the most magnificient hands. They are strong, warm, soft, clever, amazing.
Skandar purposely avoids him.
He knows he has a crush on him that could transforms into something bigger at any moment and it is the last thing he needs.
He has to work with Ben. He cannot cast him away or ignores him if he humiliates himself or things got weird.
Besides, what would a twenty seven years old man want with a seventeen years old boy?
Friendship apparently, and Skandar can't take it.
The whole movie is a torture and the wrap up can't come soon enought. When it does, he is overwhemed with relief. It shows.
Georgie look at him a bit confused but, thankfully, she is too young to work it out on her own. Will and Anna are too busy making their goodbyes to everybody. The only one who notices is Ben.
He smiles and act like nothing is amiss but Skandar knows it bothers him. Ben has made a lot of efforts to be part of the group and let them remince at lenght whenever they felt like it. But he hasn't been really included and Skandar knows it is marginaly his fault.
At home, hands take a total background to guilt. He can't shake Ben's hurt expression with a fake smile platered on his face. He promises to do better next time. If there is a next time.
There is and Skandar do better. He jokes with Ben, proposes games, talks and visits off set, with Georgie and Will P. or without. Still, there is times when they got too close or laught too hard, Skandar feel a flash of arousal so strong it left him breathless.
Ben still look a bit hurt whenever Skandar suddenly pull away from an embrance or up and leave a conversation, abruptly, without warnings.
It stands like a wall between them and Skandar doesn't know what to do about it. It makes them both miserable, Skandar more then Ben, who he is in love with.
He is nineteen and lonely.
It is Ben thirty's birthday party and they all got invited. He doesn't know how it came about but they are alone in Ben's bedroom, a bit tipsy, and laughting, their heads bend toward each others.
Ben has been staring at him all night. Just for a few seconds and a bit shocked, like Skandar suddenly got pink hair, but Skandar knows this is not what those stares mean. He has seen them before, on boys and the occasional men, but he had never dare to hope to see them on Ben.
He is leaning on Ben left side and Ben is caressing the nape of his neck with his right hand.
His left hand suddendly come up to rest on his cheek and Ben pull his face and they are kissing. Skandar is so hungry for it he is crawling into Ben laps. Ben's hands are rubbing his back, gripping his hair, come under his ass, pick him up and dump him on the bed.
It is the best night of Skandar life.
After that, there is hands. But also smile, neck, hair, shoulders, smell, tighs, dick.
Everything about Ben, really.