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so it's great to be home. I mean, i go to school here, and I come home every weekend practically to do my laundry and EAT, cus yeah, I'm basically always food deprived. It's nice to be home and relax. I completed finals, i got through my first semester-meeting new ppl, getting myself into different situations and then getting myself out of them, learning new strengths and weakness (my own and others), and just plain learning about myself. All these things can tucker a person out, especially over the course of a semester where you are also expected to learn new material and excel in it.
I loved meeting the new people. My roommates are basically amazing and I couldn't imagine how i would have survived w/o them. They were basically my best friends this semseter. We were each other's supporters. They are sooooo random and fun, and yeah, we get our laughs at poking fun at ppl, but it's only because the ppl we make fun of we can completely relate to.
I miss all of you that went away to school too. I mean, from the 45 minutes it takes to go to ISU to the 6 hours it may take to travel to texas or new york, or oregon, or missouri. I think of random people everyday that I haven't talked to, so even if i don't call, don't think you're not in my thoughts, because it would be a pretty safe bet to say you are.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm a bad person. I mean, I'm not cruel, but sometimes I feel so selfish. I feel like i just need me time, but it seems like all i do is give myself me time. I love people, especially my friends, but I still need to basically kick my butt to call people, to initiate something. I HATE THE PHONE!!!! Most people don't know that, but I do. It's so impersonal and you get caught up on it. At least I do. I just let people talk on and on, and I really believe it makes me an unhappier person. Talking on the phone makes me unhappy? Who would have thought. It just feels like my energy slowly drains out of my if the conversation is longer than 20 minutes. I am perfectly content with sitting in my room and reading, or being in the house all alone and laying on the couch noticing things I hadn't noticed before. School has definitely been trying in the sense of doing these private things. There is no privacy with 3 roommates and 2 suitemates, but hey, it's college.
I love Christmas. I love the sounds, I love the smells, I love the colors, and the sight of people being happy, the joy of this holiday is amazing to witness. Special memories come from this season, no matter what you believe, good things, interesting things happen during this time of year. I always feel more alive during this holiday. As a kid it's all about the presents, but as you grow older, at least to me it seems it's less about what you get as what you give. It makes me so happy to find that what I'm giving brings others joy. It's like that for all the gifts I give though, no matter what the occasion. I love giving, contributing, making others happy. I think Christmas just brings it out on a grander scale. Unfortunately, this Christmas doesn't feel as special to me. Maybe it's because it seemed to have come so fast. My last final was on Saturday the 17th, so the whole of December I was in hardcore "finish up school" mode. By the time I came to my senses it was the 20th and Christmas was 5 days away. I just didn't have time to appreciate its coming like I have so many other years. It's sad and it makes me sad...and Christmas is tomorrow.
Anyway, I know this isn't going to last, i mean, how could it, my favorite part of Christmas is happening tomorrow morning...the gifts. I just hope everyone has an amazing Christmas, it a time for happingess and time with your family and friends. Enjoy Everyone!
I loved meeting the new people. My roommates are basically amazing and I couldn't imagine how i would have survived w/o them. They were basically my best friends this semseter. We were each other's supporters. They are sooooo random and fun, and yeah, we get our laughs at poking fun at ppl, but it's only because the ppl we make fun of we can completely relate to.
I miss all of you that went away to school too. I mean, from the 45 minutes it takes to go to ISU to the 6 hours it may take to travel to texas or new york, or oregon, or missouri. I think of random people everyday that I haven't talked to, so even if i don't call, don't think you're not in my thoughts, because it would be a pretty safe bet to say you are.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm a bad person. I mean, I'm not cruel, but sometimes I feel so selfish. I feel like i just need me time, but it seems like all i do is give myself me time. I love people, especially my friends, but I still need to basically kick my butt to call people, to initiate something. I HATE THE PHONE!!!! Most people don't know that, but I do. It's so impersonal and you get caught up on it. At least I do. I just let people talk on and on, and I really believe it makes me an unhappier person. Talking on the phone makes me unhappy? Who would have thought. It just feels like my energy slowly drains out of my if the conversation is longer than 20 minutes. I am perfectly content with sitting in my room and reading, or being in the house all alone and laying on the couch noticing things I hadn't noticed before. School has definitely been trying in the sense of doing these private things. There is no privacy with 3 roommates and 2 suitemates, but hey, it's college.
I love Christmas. I love the sounds, I love the smells, I love the colors, and the sight of people being happy, the joy of this holiday is amazing to witness. Special memories come from this season, no matter what you believe, good things, interesting things happen during this time of year. I always feel more alive during this holiday. As a kid it's all about the presents, but as you grow older, at least to me it seems it's less about what you get as what you give. It makes me so happy to find that what I'm giving brings others joy. It's like that for all the gifts I give though, no matter what the occasion. I love giving, contributing, making others happy. I think Christmas just brings it out on a grander scale. Unfortunately, this Christmas doesn't feel as special to me. Maybe it's because it seemed to have come so fast. My last final was on Saturday the 17th, so the whole of December I was in hardcore "finish up school" mode. By the time I came to my senses it was the 20th and Christmas was 5 days away. I just didn't have time to appreciate its coming like I have so many other years. It's sad and it makes me sad...and Christmas is tomorrow.
Anyway, I know this isn't going to last, i mean, how could it, my favorite part of Christmas is happening tomorrow morning...the gifts. I just hope everyone has an amazing Christmas, it a time for happingess and time with your family and friends. Enjoy Everyone!