GWAR!!!!!!!!!
Note to you: Never, ever, ever become a teacher!!! NEVER!
I had one of the hardest days of my life yesterday...thanks to my job. You see, I have this blog and in it, I said some not so positive things about the country I am living in currently. Why? Because I was culture shocked and had been treated badly and had no way of contacting people save through this blog. Anyways, BIG taboo in this country. Whoops. So, a few nights ago a parent found this blog and I guess told other parents about it through the grapevine and well, I'm thisclose to losing my job and being sent home. It's not fair. I feel like my privacy has been breached. I feel like I'm on display because I am a teacher. I feel attacked. Anyways, these parents want nothing to do with me. Apparently they're disgusted. I feel like I'm being judged as being a bad person for doing something totally innocent...and I don't get to even try and redeem myself. It sucks.
Anyhoo, I can't stop crying. I've devoted the last 6 years of my life to the teaching profession thinking that this is what I want to do with my life. Hoping that I can make a difference. But in the end, it's not worth the self sacrifice. I have had the 2 hardest years of my life...and most of my hardship has stemmed from stubborn parents. I'm sick of it. I know, after this year...if I survive here...I'm quitting. I might substitute but I want nothing to do with the beaurocracy and hypocrisy of schools. Sick of it.
Anyways, sorry for my ranting and raving. I'm just very lonely in this strange place with not many people to talk to. I'm a screw up.
Love,
Camille
PS. Sorry for my absence the past 3 months.
I had one of the hardest days of my life yesterday...thanks to my job. You see, I have this blog and in it, I said some not so positive things about the country I am living in currently. Why? Because I was culture shocked and had been treated badly and had no way of contacting people save through this blog. Anyways, BIG taboo in this country. Whoops. So, a few nights ago a parent found this blog and I guess told other parents about it through the grapevine and well, I'm thisclose to losing my job and being sent home. It's not fair. I feel like my privacy has been breached. I feel like I'm on display because I am a teacher. I feel attacked. Anyways, these parents want nothing to do with me. Apparently they're disgusted. I feel like I'm being judged as being a bad person for doing something totally innocent...and I don't get to even try and redeem myself. It sucks.
Anyhoo, I can't stop crying. I've devoted the last 6 years of my life to the teaching profession thinking that this is what I want to do with my life. Hoping that I can make a difference. But in the end, it's not worth the self sacrifice. I have had the 2 hardest years of my life...and most of my hardship has stemmed from stubborn parents. I'm sick of it. I know, after this year...if I survive here...I'm quitting. I might substitute but I want nothing to do with the beaurocracy and hypocrisy of schools. Sick of it.
Anyways, sorry for my ranting and raving. I'm just very lonely in this strange place with not many people to talk to. I'm a screw up.
Love,
Camille
PS. Sorry for my absence the past 3 months.