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So now comes the time to make that awful. life-changing decision that I never wanted to have to make. I'm burnt out after just one semester of college. I need time to go practice and focus. I haven't made the progress that I expected myself to make, far from it, and I've been working as hard as I can. It means so much to me that my mother and my best friends are supportive of me and are giving me as much help as they possibly can. I feel so fortunate to have found friends who truly care about me for who I am, friends who care enough to tell me in the morning, "Seriously Camille, you look like shit. You need to take better care of yourself! Go get some rest!" I feel I'm so undeserving of being surrounded by such amazing people who take the time out of their own busy schedules to actually be my friend. When I think back at the beginning of the school year, how frazzled and all-over the place I was, I wonder what I was thinking. I wasted so much energy trying to make friends, I forgot that real friendship isn't about how much time you spend together but rather how you spend it. I'm so much happier and stable than I was in October. Maybe I'm finally learning how to behave normally in a society.
On a much happier note, I'm going Christmas shopping with Kim later on today. YAY! I have plenty of money and it's going to be so hard to find nice gifts for everyone I care about. I'm excited for next semester, my work load will be much lighter, no matter what I decide, and my trio is staying together!! We're going to play Smetana and we're going to KICK SOME SERIOUS ASS DOING IT!!
Shower time...
On a much happier note, I'm going Christmas shopping with Kim later on today. YAY! I have plenty of money and it's going to be so hard to find nice gifts for everyone I care about. I'm excited for next semester, my work load will be much lighter, no matter what I decide, and my trio is staying together!! We're going to play Smetana and we're going to KICK SOME SERIOUS ASS DOING IT!!
Shower time...