Permanent Sonic Mechanosensations Beget Nomenclature Reflection
I truly dislike the name Camilla Wax. I didn't always. I once thought it rather eerily pretty, exactly like the character. But she grates on people, as any proper Nosferatu ought to, and now her name is an irksome thing in my mind.
It's a terrible thing, realising one's vulnerability to the intended machinations of our own creation, that we are no less a victim of their schemes for our making of them. Especially when you get caught up in schemes you don't like. Or worse, you run out of schemes.
The thing is, I've been trying to play something else for a while now, and I keep coming back to Camilla because it's easier, I know how to do it, and quite frankly, I hold myself to a more self-justifiable and less calculating game with the Lady Wax than with Merritt Wiley. But I say to myself, in slow deliberate enunciation (low rolling syllables and very crisp Ts), -I must learn how to play this game better,- and for that, I need Merritt.
Merritt. (Merit d'Egregroroi, if she's feeling obnoxiously satirically humorous). She's enigmatic, elusive, Acolyte. First, I have no clue where the name came from. I don't even like it, not really. It's a smooth name, the uniqueness of it being deliberately swallowed up by the overwhelming insignificance of the whole. How very *properly* Shadowy indeed.
Merritt will be dark and beautiful but oh so very very bright. She's Bennet's kid; she has to be. Merritt's Embrace was a fantastical, inverted parody of any classic boudoir vampire scene in history or fiction, only because it generated mental acuity and ambitious cunning out of such a weak and inhibited young thing; a whole new predator-scholar, once her Requiem and Sire had claimed her.
But the million dollar question remains...What in the name of the Great General Triumvirate of Female Deities and Sundry Lessers does Merritt want to do? What seizes her interest, as she is passing along the social highways of the mundane and meta world?
Wherein are her dreams and purpose united?
When she sees it, she'll chase it.
The name Merritt serves its purpose exactly, I have determined, through this self-directed discourse.
Here's hoping nobody gets sick of it.