Happiness is...
Remember being happy?
Sometimes it takes me a bit, but I do.
Happiness is...riding Splash Mountain at night in the front row with Megan at Disney
...hearing my nephew Kyle tell me that the gift I gave him was awesome
...watching your dad play Cranium and making an absolute fool of himself
...playing in the ICU and knowing that you really did make a difference
...hugging Matt McCollum and going to First Pres where you're family
...getting a hand written letter from your niece
...spending time with my lovely sister Sandra
...knowing you have 5 siblings and 2 parents who love you
...playing with a cheery puppy named Ellie
...hanging out with Lara Larberg
...eating Indian food with friends
Sometimes, I have to remind myself so I make lists like that.
January just seems to suck for me. Especial the first real week. I blame it all on 10th grade when I went to All-State and that was the time that Jamie and I broke up.
Well, ok, I don't really blame it on that, but...there's a track record.
You know how Luke on Gilmore Girls had a "Dark Day"? I have kinda a "Dark Week". I remember every bit of 2 yrs ago, and I cry alot in that first week back to school. Last year, it was crippling panic attacks, but this year I had opera scenes week so there was no time for that. Instead it manifested itself in crippling REAL pain that made it feel like a 400 lb man was standing on my chest. There was a point in time that I considered actually going to the ER, but luckily dad just got a doctor in FL on the phone, relayed my symptoms and questions to him, and decided that wasn't necessary. Besides, I'd just been to the doctor right before I came back to NYC. And found out I'm anemic after a day of running around for tests and doctors apartments. Turns out it's probably just costochondritis, where I did something that made some cartilage in my chest angry. I've been on 10 advil a day, now gradually going down to 4 since advil makes my head feel fuzzy and it's only like a dull feeling of a bulldozer running over my body. Meh.
I did have a pretty decent break, managing to practice about 3 hrs a day while seeing a bajillion people while home. I went to Tallahassee and saw Mrs. Roman which was nice, and spent a lovely day at Disney with Megan and her family!!! Very fun:-) Plus, my sister Sandra came down 2x which is always so much fun. I still can't beleive Matt is leaving though...seems wierd.
I finished opera scenes week with long rehearsals but I had a great time. And I saw a new place in New York (a different part of the Village). This week: Brahms Requiem and Mahler 5. Now I just feel bleh and I have my first audition in 3 weeks and the stress level is off the wall! I cried in my last lesson..hoping that won't happen again:-(
Leave me something happy, people!!!
<3
Sometimes it takes me a bit, but I do.
Happiness is...riding Splash Mountain at night in the front row with Megan at Disney
...hearing my nephew Kyle tell me that the gift I gave him was awesome
...watching your dad play Cranium and making an absolute fool of himself
...playing in the ICU and knowing that you really did make a difference
...hugging Matt McCollum and going to First Pres where you're family
...getting a hand written letter from your niece
...spending time with my lovely sister Sandra
...knowing you have 5 siblings and 2 parents who love you
...playing with a cheery puppy named Ellie
...hanging out with Lara Larberg
...eating Indian food with friends
Sometimes, I have to remind myself so I make lists like that.
January just seems to suck for me. Especial the first real week. I blame it all on 10th grade when I went to All-State and that was the time that Jamie and I broke up.
Well, ok, I don't really blame it on that, but...there's a track record.
You know how Luke on Gilmore Girls had a "Dark Day"? I have kinda a "Dark Week". I remember every bit of 2 yrs ago, and I cry alot in that first week back to school. Last year, it was crippling panic attacks, but this year I had opera scenes week so there was no time for that. Instead it manifested itself in crippling REAL pain that made it feel like a 400 lb man was standing on my chest. There was a point in time that I considered actually going to the ER, but luckily dad just got a doctor in FL on the phone, relayed my symptoms and questions to him, and decided that wasn't necessary. Besides, I'd just been to the doctor right before I came back to NYC. And found out I'm anemic after a day of running around for tests and doctors apartments. Turns out it's probably just costochondritis, where I did something that made some cartilage in my chest angry. I've been on 10 advil a day, now gradually going down to 4 since advil makes my head feel fuzzy and it's only like a dull feeling of a bulldozer running over my body. Meh.
I did have a pretty decent break, managing to practice about 3 hrs a day while seeing a bajillion people while home. I went to Tallahassee and saw Mrs. Roman which was nice, and spent a lovely day at Disney with Megan and her family!!! Very fun:-) Plus, my sister Sandra came down 2x which is always so much fun. I still can't beleive Matt is leaving though...seems wierd.
I finished opera scenes week with long rehearsals but I had a great time. And I saw a new place in New York (a different part of the Village). This week: Brahms Requiem and Mahler 5. Now I just feel bleh and I have my first audition in 3 weeks and the stress level is off the wall! I cried in my last lesson..hoping that won't happen again:-(
Leave me something happy, people!!!
<3