The Old Man & The Enterprise Part 19 of 19

[camesawconquerd]

title: The Old Man and the Enterprise 19/19
rating: R for language and sexual situations
pairing: Kirk/Bones (or as I like to call it... BORK)
disclaimer: Sadly Star Trek is copyrighted to someone else and is in no way mine. I merely write the fanfiction with a lot of unnecessary quirks. Also: keep an eye out for falling literary, film, religious

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[supasass]

This ia the very, very, first time I've cried at the start of ANYTHING. That's a first. And now I'm trying for composure, because I've absorbed the characters and its all goodbye, goodbye, goodbye....

*fishes out tissues* this is ridiculous! To have write out these thoughts and moments forever would be pleasing, but everyone gets sucked back into the universe, even Achilles and Patroclus - whoops, Kirk and Bones.

I appreciate that thia last chapter is all about endings. No one ever really dies but its silly to say I can give you forever. In fact, what's more, what's as good as any parallel universe is that you're worth breaking my heart over when the circle ends. I feel as if this one of the things they have said to each other. Maybe I'm wrong and completely projecting?

I had a strong vision of an open door at the end of this, like they have left that house holding hands, trying to live in moments before forever really does become everything its cracked up to be. I don't know if I'm making sense, oh hell.

I'm on record calling this my favourite series of all time. So I thought you'd probably want to know :p. You seemed to be having a hard time of late and I hope you're better. Thamk You again. I felt a bit of pressure commmenting cos I don;t know if this one is any good and if you've understood the ways and hows I've loved and love this fic, and even if I've properly understood it until you reply, eep.

I'll end my blathering there. I'm already a crazy booklady but your reference guide is going to be plundered mercifulessly (shit can't spell! lol).

*Take a deep steadying breath and goes back to the real world*

xxxx

[camesawconquerd]

Awww bb ;-;! I never really meant for it to break anyone's hearts I suppose. It was always supposed to be exactly what you said: an open door. Though, as I said in the reference guide, "I tried to write a real doctor and a real captain and a real space ship and a real Georgia farmhouse, but if I did my job, if I was true to all of them, they would mean many things to many people."

I think the ambiguity of the ending was there so that you could read into it anything that you wanted to be there. If it was that they'd leave each other and break each others' hearts then so be it. The spoiler for it, from my point of view, was that there's a discussion above it regarding time as malleable and flexible. It's a brief and very vague glimpse into time dilation and a little bit of physics. Forever to me is such a short measure of time, but to say, as Bones does, that he will love Jim for a time means that he will love him for all of it. From time beginning until time end.

So to me it was a happy ending, for other people it was a vague allusion to love as a pessimistic endeavor, and for others it was love as it ends.

But - it was supposed to mean many things, and whatever you wanted to take away from it is what you could take away from it, even for me.

I love your blathering and I love your comments even when I've been slow on replying or months and months late. I promised myself I'd finish this no matter what and I did and it feels great. Not just for myself but because I gave it back to everyone who read it in the very last words.

♥ *hugs you*