I feel Alright.
Just sitting here. A little late but I don't care. I have time to sleep in tomorrow. Had a decent day. Gotta take mom's reminder to be in the moment. Don't worry about the future or what I could be doing. Be in the moment of what I am doing. Today I steamed the pieces of wig I took apart from two wigs to add to an existing wig that I will style. Excited to see how it will turn out, even if its "meh" then it's my "meh" baby. But I think I am going to FUCK IT UP SIS. I watched an episode of Buffy I really enjoyed and don't think I have seen before. It centered around Spike and how he was admitting his feelings for Buffy. But his Sire Vampire lover from the past showed up and he also had to deal with the annoying Harmony, his current airhead vamp girlfriend. I realize I really enjoy Spike and he may be one of my favorite characters. I think growing up I liked who I was supposed to like who I was essentially told to like. But now I usually favor the villains or the more complex characters. Joss Wheddon is good at creating characters like that. Characters who are bad but they aren't ALL bad. There are layers. Maybe that is why Evan and Jonny are two of my closest friends. Jonny lives his life in the grey.Definitely villains in some people's stories but ultimately they don't have bad intentions. As Samantha from sex in the city once said "Chill babe, we're all bad in someone's story." I know I am bad in maybe a couple peoples stories but as I have said "I might be wicked but maybe you made me this way." We all have had to get wicked to get what we wanted in someway. If you avoid it you are not living your life for yourself or you have submitted way too many times for the wrong people. If you are reading this now here is your sign to SET YOURSELF FREE.