better now than never
Since my sleeping schedule is messed up, I mind as well make an entry.
Yes, a lot has happened. I am single, have a different major, and non-medicated. There is no hostility since the break up and I don't there will ever be. I am fine right now, but my emotions are a little wild since I went cold turkey (no pun intended) on my meds. I figured that would happen, but I must go through it. I feel more human I would say. I am no longer in this emotionless limbo. I have highs and lows. No, I am not bi-polar. I have been trying to make myself happy, lately it has been working. I just have focused on little things lately, like even talking to someone helps. I don't necessarily need someone to be happy, but it was always nice to have that blanket. I am not looking for someone, nor do I plan on looking for sometime anytime soon. I need some me time. I kind have moved back into the "old Alex" as some would say. Some have you missed it, some of you will hate it. It's hard going back to how I was almost two years ago.
I visited Dane at GVSU last weekend. It was nice. It was nice to see an old friend after a lot has happened. I realized my "game" is off, then again I wasn't trying to hit on anyone or find anything, but talking to girls has been harder than usual. The only thing that has really come back that I have noticed is my bluntness and hostility. I am sorta back in that "I don't care what you think" mode. This could be bad or good.
If I haven't talked to you in awhile, it is not intentional. Talk to me, call me, text me, hang out, I will be always willing to listen. But if you're thinking "Oh, Alex is single, I need to get the rebound", look elsewhere, I am not interested. Also, I am not trying to say I am a hot ticket, I am just saying I am in no sort of eagerness.
From First To Last is coming up, that'll be fun.
I was trying to find someone to comfort me after the break-up/no meds, and really, it never worked. Just because I talk to you and you are a girl DOES NOT MEAN that I am wanting to pursue a relationship or anything like that. I think I might stick to my sausage fest (lolz).
But hey, if you guys ever want to listen to me, just call/IM/text/or hang out with me. I am not going to be a crying little bitch.
But enough of the relationship stuff. What else has been going on? Well, this has been the longest streak I have stayed at MSU for a long time. Sure, it's cool, but you miss being in your own house and sleeping in your own bed. I love it here at MSU, don't get me wrong. But I am one of those people who needs to come home every so often. Not to see people, but to be back in my comfort zone and not worry about the stresses of school.
By the way, I noticed I can think, write, and speak more clearly than how I was on my meds.
I have been dancing more (lolz), and singing. I like it. Pretend I am some rock star. Someday I will be...(jk). Also, the music I listen to has changed a decent amount since I am clean from the pills. Rather than trying to be poetic, and trying to find meaning in lyrics, I have been enjoying the melodic aspects of music. Posting lyrics in your info or away message does not make you more intellectual (Yes, I know I do it too). But hey, perhaps that's why I wear "emo" glasses.
Yes, a lot has happened. I am single, have a different major, and non-medicated. There is no hostility since the break up and I don't there will ever be. I am fine right now, but my emotions are a little wild since I went cold turkey (no pun intended) on my meds. I figured that would happen, but I must go through it. I feel more human I would say. I am no longer in this emotionless limbo. I have highs and lows. No, I am not bi-polar. I have been trying to make myself happy, lately it has been working. I just have focused on little things lately, like even talking to someone helps. I don't necessarily need someone to be happy, but it was always nice to have that blanket. I am not looking for someone, nor do I plan on looking for sometime anytime soon. I need some me time. I kind have moved back into the "old Alex" as some would say. Some have you missed it, some of you will hate it. It's hard going back to how I was almost two years ago.
I visited Dane at GVSU last weekend. It was nice. It was nice to see an old friend after a lot has happened. I realized my "game" is off, then again I wasn't trying to hit on anyone or find anything, but talking to girls has been harder than usual. The only thing that has really come back that I have noticed is my bluntness and hostility. I am sorta back in that "I don't care what you think" mode. This could be bad or good.
If I haven't talked to you in awhile, it is not intentional. Talk to me, call me, text me, hang out, I will be always willing to listen. But if you're thinking "Oh, Alex is single, I need to get the rebound", look elsewhere, I am not interested. Also, I am not trying to say I am a hot ticket, I am just saying I am in no sort of eagerness.
From First To Last is coming up, that'll be fun.
I was trying to find someone to comfort me after the break-up/no meds, and really, it never worked. Just because I talk to you and you are a girl DOES NOT MEAN that I am wanting to pursue a relationship or anything like that. I think I might stick to my sausage fest (lolz).
But hey, if you guys ever want to listen to me, just call/IM/text/or hang out with me. I am not going to be a crying little bitch.
But enough of the relationship stuff. What else has been going on? Well, this has been the longest streak I have stayed at MSU for a long time. Sure, it's cool, but you miss being in your own house and sleeping in your own bed. I love it here at MSU, don't get me wrong. But I am one of those people who needs to come home every so often. Not to see people, but to be back in my comfort zone and not worry about the stresses of school.
By the way, I noticed I can think, write, and speak more clearly than how I was on my meds.
I have been dancing more (lolz), and singing. I like it. Pretend I am some rock star. Someday I will be...(jk). Also, the music I listen to has changed a decent amount since I am clean from the pills. Rather than trying to be poetic, and trying to find meaning in lyrics, I have been enjoying the melodic aspects of music. Posting lyrics in your info or away message does not make you more intellectual (Yes, I know I do it too). But hey, perhaps that's why I wear "emo" glasses.