drifting in a tornado
Well, i'm about to head to bed, ridiculously early as it is for bed in the summer, because tomorrow morning i leave for the airport bright and early at 6:15 a.m. for a family vacation! On the plus side: it's to Seattle, one of the most beautiful cities i've been to. On the negative side: it's two weeks. With my family. That's right, we supposedly get back around 9 pm (if the flight doesn't get delayed) on Saturday, August 2. And probably no internet. And no french horn, because i don't want to risk it on the airlines again. It's way too scary. No piano at my relatives' place, either, to the best of my knowledge. As far as music making goes, it'll just be my voice, my penny whistle (that actually cost $10), and my trusty portable CD player. *sigh* Well, it'll be fun at times, at least, but i'm sure that i will be exceedingly happy when we get home, too. This has been a strange summer, because i've been running about all over the place, not staying more than a week or two anywhere, so i haven't fallen into any sort of a comfortable routine at any point. At least last summer i was away in the same place for 6 weeks. This summer, i have no place, no roots, nothing. I don't feel like i've made much of an impact on anything, even myself. I've just been drifting, absorbing information as i go, but unable to do anything about it because of the isolation that drifting gives you...
I need steadily available people who are not my family. I want to stay put for a while. I know that sounds strange coming from me, but it's really how i feel. I can't wait to settle in at ISU in the fall.
Oh! And to end on a positive note (literally)... I found the LYS concert CDs that my dad picked up while i was in Colorado. I was listening to the spring concert CD, and in comes this horn solo, and it sounded really great! It made me so excited, to hear myself on a recording and actually fully approve of it. This past year really has held some glorious days for my playing. I think i will take the CD to college and listen to it whenever i feel like dust under the almighty foot of Seebeck. Which i'm sure will happen a lot, but that's the way things go when you're a freshman.
I need steadily available people who are not my family. I want to stay put for a while. I know that sounds strange coming from me, but it's really how i feel. I can't wait to settle in at ISU in the fall.
Oh! And to end on a positive note (literally)... I found the LYS concert CDs that my dad picked up while i was in Colorado. I was listening to the spring concert CD, and in comes this horn solo, and it sounded really great! It made me so excited, to hear myself on a recording and actually fully approve of it. This past year really has held some glorious days for my playing. I think i will take the CD to college and listen to it whenever i feel like dust under the almighty foot of Seebeck. Which i'm sure will happen a lot, but that's the way things go when you're a freshman.