My back is breaking from a heavy heart...
wow, it has been a long time since I last updated. So I have a lot to say, in little time and probably words. I shall make a list:
*I am on Set and Tech crew for Fiddler On The Roof, the school production, with Tess
*I have like NO time left anymore
*I am hopefully buying my brothers old car off my parents, the current owner, for my first car... 2200 baby B)
*Despite what I have said... I never stopped liking someone... and ya know... it still hurts... No NOT Marshall all you creepy rumor vultors (wicked sp) this one would be AFTER Marshall...
*Dance is going well
*I can play Can You Feel The Love Tonight and My Heart Will Go On on my guitar. I know that's dumb, so shut up.
xxmiserylovemexx: it's just like...ughh.. I dont know why I like him, but I do... and I know I NEVER have a chance with him.. and i would KILL for a first real boyfriend at this point and I am at the part of all this where a lot of the time, being lonely gets to me and i curl up and just cry and like cry myself to sleep kind of just thinking of how I have never had that specail whatever and how badly I want it, and how deserving I am, but DONT have it
xxmiserylovemexx: W"Piahspjg
XJustADayBehindX: *Nods and listens* mmmm. And after realizing your worth it its not there, that must suck
xxmiserylovemexx: yeah
xxmiserylovemexx: I am like one of the most deserving people right?
xxmiserylovemexx: I mean, I work hard, and try hard, i am a good person generally.... so why not?
XJustADayBehindX: *Nods* when you think about it, your exactlly right
XJustADayBehindX: You've waited more then most people
xxmiserylovemexx: 15 fucking years take a month and ten days
XJustADayBehindX: yea'
yeah, that covers it basically.
*I am on Set and Tech crew for Fiddler On The Roof, the school production, with Tess
*I have like NO time left anymore
*I am hopefully buying my brothers old car off my parents, the current owner, for my first car... 2200 baby B)
*Despite what I have said... I never stopped liking someone... and ya know... it still hurts... No NOT Marshall all you creepy rumor vultors (wicked sp) this one would be AFTER Marshall...
*Dance is going well
*I can play Can You Feel The Love Tonight and My Heart Will Go On on my guitar. I know that's dumb, so shut up.
xxmiserylovemexx: it's just like...ughh.. I dont know why I like him, but I do... and I know I NEVER have a chance with him.. and i would KILL for a first real boyfriend at this point and I am at the part of all this where a lot of the time, being lonely gets to me and i curl up and just cry and like cry myself to sleep kind of just thinking of how I have never had that specail whatever and how badly I want it, and how deserving I am, but DONT have it
xxmiserylovemexx: W"Piahspjg
XJustADayBehindX: *Nods and listens* mmmm. And after realizing your worth it its not there, that must suck
xxmiserylovemexx: yeah
xxmiserylovemexx: I am like one of the most deserving people right?
xxmiserylovemexx: I mean, I work hard, and try hard, i am a good person generally.... so why not?
XJustADayBehindX: *Nods* when you think about it, your exactlly right
XJustADayBehindX: You've waited more then most people
xxmiserylovemexx: 15 fucking years take a month and ten days
XJustADayBehindX: yea'
yeah, that covers it basically.