amazing

[cameej]

i am done doing things that bog me down.
i want to live life as unexpectedly as i can.
i want to love it as well.
i meet so many people everyday and i want that to continue.
i want good hearts who listen and care close to me.
i want a man.
a man to hold and take care of me but knows full well i can myself. i want him to hear everyword that comes out of my mouth and heart and help me make sense of it. i want his helping hand. i want to dance with him and try new things. i want him to push me towards my future and never let me settle even when it is all i want, beacuse he would know i really dont want that at all. i want us to always travel and love others as well as ourselves. i want him to know i need my space and i always need to grow and do something new or i will not be happy.
i want a father who accepts me i know he has love for me but i want him to accept me.
i want to be able to afford school.
i want to get things set up for russia.
i want to get another job if not a new one completely.
i want to be happy with my choices and quit feeling guilty.
i want to be able to make desicions and not be afraid to regret them
i want my life to be everything it was meant to be.
even if it isnt what i really want.....