Insomnia moment
I cannot sleep perhaps is because I have music on or perhaps is because I have a couple of thoughts circling in my head. So I figured that by getting them off my chest I can finally hit dreamland.[ I'm not sure if i do want to sleep, last night I had a nightmare. A little traumatizing at that. It felt real, gross. I won't be able to see that man in the face ever again]
But back to the matter..
1. I know what I want to do for my birthday. I want to take a little trip perhaps to Orlando. CLoser and perhaps cheaper to any other place. I want to tell the UN beforehand so they can start saving up :) I just want to do something new for a change. All I know I'm going somewhere!
2. I'm doing Tokyo thing next semester even if I have to take loans. Shit, I have to do something memorable. London would be fine too, but Tokyo sounds even better.
3. I want to get my mom her "finca". And I want to buy her a house in the US. Problem is to pull that off I have to wait a couple of yrs. But I don't want to wait for so long. I want to give her something already. She deserves it!!!! Gosh, I wish I could win the lottery..hey even marrying a old rich man would do it. As long I can get my mami what she deserves.
4. This one is a little private . I've been thinking about D all night. I miss him. Oh is that possible? I just saw him last night. I'm getting too attach, perhaps too much for my own good. OMG how is it going to be for the next 2 months?!?! * Not thinking about it, not thinking about it.. refuse to*
5. I have a test tomorrow well later on today. I want to do well. I feel I am but I haven't study enough to do so. Damn it!!
6. I forgot what else I was thinking. I really am typing my ass off right now.
7. I was not bullshitting about the birthday thing. Is on a friday so a two day getaway would be good! Hopefully someone will jump in the wagon with me.
8. I can't wait till Bolivia. I'm getting anxious about it. I missed that feeling.
9. For a little bit I was thinking about the whole death deal. It fucking freaks me out everytime. I have to go to church or something. See what happens when you stop being religious. Not that I was soo devoted before.
10. I think I'm done. Right now im thinking of what to write next. I guess that just shows that Im out of stuff.
11. Wait, no. I was thinking about how Hy and W have been together for like what? almost 2 yrs now. Damn it's amazing how time is going by so quick. I'm almost in my 3rd yr. I don't want life to go by this quick. I really don't. fine I bitch about it once in a while and all but still. It's too short to move so fast.
ok, I have to admit for a less than a sec. Sef was in my thoughts. Mood killer huh? I just don't know. It's annoying as fuck so I can only imagine how it is to hear about it everytime. The guy is a whore, he's not who I first liked. well from what I heard he was before "my time" and now he's back to his old games. He's like a scar, he'll always be there. I hate to admit it but it's the truth. But again everything seems to be like a scar to me. Everything stays with me.
Oh the battery is dying on me. Good otherwise I would keep going and going and I just realized that is not helping much. Because I don't feel any sleepier than I did before. Shit!
I was thinking of posting this as a private entry but I think this will help someone get in my head a little. Well whoever is interested that is.
Can you tell im just rambling on and on?
But back to the matter..
1. I know what I want to do for my birthday. I want to take a little trip perhaps to Orlando. CLoser and perhaps cheaper to any other place. I want to tell the UN beforehand so they can start saving up :) I just want to do something new for a change. All I know I'm going somewhere!
2. I'm doing Tokyo thing next semester even if I have to take loans. Shit, I have to do something memorable. London would be fine too, but Tokyo sounds even better.
3. I want to get my mom her "finca". And I want to buy her a house in the US. Problem is to pull that off I have to wait a couple of yrs. But I don't want to wait for so long. I want to give her something already. She deserves it!!!! Gosh, I wish I could win the lottery..hey even marrying a old rich man would do it. As long I can get my mami what she deserves.
4. This one is a little private . I've been thinking about D all night. I miss him. Oh is that possible? I just saw him last night. I'm getting too attach, perhaps too much for my own good. OMG how is it going to be for the next 2 months?!?! * Not thinking about it, not thinking about it.. refuse to*
5. I have a test tomorrow well later on today. I want to do well. I feel I am but I haven't study enough to do so. Damn it!!
6. I forgot what else I was thinking. I really am typing my ass off right now.
7. I was not bullshitting about the birthday thing. Is on a friday so a two day getaway would be good! Hopefully someone will jump in the wagon with me.
8. I can't wait till Bolivia. I'm getting anxious about it. I missed that feeling.
9. For a little bit I was thinking about the whole death deal. It fucking freaks me out everytime. I have to go to church or something. See what happens when you stop being religious. Not that I was soo devoted before.
10. I think I'm done. Right now im thinking of what to write next. I guess that just shows that Im out of stuff.
11. Wait, no. I was thinking about how Hy and W have been together for like what? almost 2 yrs now. Damn it's amazing how time is going by so quick. I'm almost in my 3rd yr. I don't want life to go by this quick. I really don't. fine I bitch about it once in a while and all but still. It's too short to move so fast.
ok, I have to admit for a less than a sec. Sef was in my thoughts. Mood killer huh? I just don't know. It's annoying as fuck so I can only imagine how it is to hear about it everytime. The guy is a whore, he's not who I first liked. well from what I heard he was before "my time" and now he's back to his old games. He's like a scar, he'll always be there. I hate to admit it but it's the truth. But again everything seems to be like a scar to me. Everything stays with me.
Oh the battery is dying on me. Good otherwise I would keep going and going and I just realized that is not helping much. Because I don't feel any sleepier than I did before. Shit!
I was thinking of posting this as a private entry but I think this will help someone get in my head a little. Well whoever is interested that is.
Can you tell im just rambling on and on?