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[cambelsoupspoon]

why does it keep coming back to you?
when i think of nothing at all, i see your face.
when i close my eyes all i know is you
you're gone, i know that
it's not like i think you're coming back
how many nights do i need to cry
how many times do i need to say your name
before my head convices my heart that you're gone
the world kept spinning, like i said that it would
no one but me cares that you are gone
so why do i have to care so much
when others care none at all
why do i have to carry this burden
the burden of keeping you alive
at times i'm glad that you're still alive in me
and other times i'm willing to die just to kill you
your heart no longer beats with mine
so why should mine at all
but i can't give you that, i won't
i could but i can't, not for you
you have to much power over me already
that's what was wrong you know
you loved me to much and i you
i saw myself giving in to you, to your heart
i couldn't let you win me over
why, i don't know, just the way i am i guess
always told not you let you win
not to let you have the power, always stay in charge
i don't think it would have been so bad
now that i see my other option
a life with you in charge of me
could be no worse then i life with out you
i know you're gone, i see that now
i wish for you back with every molecule i have
i know that you're not comming though
i know that you're gone
but it's your fault that i hold on to you
you taught me to go after what i want
you told me that i have to drop my childish fears
for you i have, but many moments to late
too many moments to late, and for that i'm sorry