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hello everyone. right now i am so confused with everything. i dont know what to think anymore, i mean, yesterday jean come over here and we came on the computer before we dyed each others hair, and josh was online and he told us that he was going to be friends with amy again because he talked to her for like 2 hours about everything that happened this weekend and now he forgave her and he asked me and jean to also forgive her, but i said that i wasnt ready yet, i cant just forgive someone cuz they want me to.
anyways, so then further on into the convo, he said to forget it, he wasnt going to be friends with her if we werent, and to me, that makes no sense at all. i told him that he needs to do what is best for him, and dont do what we are doing. but he wont listen.
i mean, and then i am sittin here on the computer last night and i am talking to josh and he is bad mouthing amy, right after he said how he wants to be her friend again, but then i am thinking, ok, he is contradicting himself, so i dont know if he is going back and telling amy what we are saying about her, or what...i dont know what to think.
and, at the same time i am mad at her, i am also hurt by this whole thing, because i dont want to throw away a friendship over something like this. i know that we didnt always get along perfectly, but, when we had fun, we had the best time, and i cant just wipe all of that out of my mind because of something like this. it may take a while for me to trust her again and to get over this whole thing, but i dont want to just forget everything that we have been through together, we were...hopefully will be again.....best friends and although we didnt always get along perfectly, it was kind of like being her sister cuz we fought like sisters, and i might be mad at her now, but i cant see being sooooo mad about something like this and at the same time forgetting all of the fun and good times that we had together. ok, well, i dont know what is going on right now, and i dont know what to do anymore, but i have to go.
i have a job interview in an hour and i have to get ready to go, i hope i get the job, and i hope that this this gets resolved between me, jean amy and josh, and i hope that the people who say they are my friends arent going behind my back and telling amy things that arent true, i mean, yes i am mad at her, she knows that, but no matter how mad i am at her, i could never forget everything that we have been through.
please give me some advice on what to do.....i dont know what to do, my mind is all over the place right now....
Laura
anyways, so then further on into the convo, he said to forget it, he wasnt going to be friends with her if we werent, and to me, that makes no sense at all. i told him that he needs to do what is best for him, and dont do what we are doing. but he wont listen.
i mean, and then i am sittin here on the computer last night and i am talking to josh and he is bad mouthing amy, right after he said how he wants to be her friend again, but then i am thinking, ok, he is contradicting himself, so i dont know if he is going back and telling amy what we are saying about her, or what...i dont know what to think.
and, at the same time i am mad at her, i am also hurt by this whole thing, because i dont want to throw away a friendship over something like this. i know that we didnt always get along perfectly, but, when we had fun, we had the best time, and i cant just wipe all of that out of my mind because of something like this. it may take a while for me to trust her again and to get over this whole thing, but i dont want to just forget everything that we have been through together, we were...hopefully will be again.....best friends and although we didnt always get along perfectly, it was kind of like being her sister cuz we fought like sisters, and i might be mad at her now, but i cant see being sooooo mad about something like this and at the same time forgetting all of the fun and good times that we had together. ok, well, i dont know what is going on right now, and i dont know what to do anymore, but i have to go.
i have a job interview in an hour and i have to get ready to go, i hope i get the job, and i hope that this this gets resolved between me, jean amy and josh, and i hope that the people who say they are my friends arent going behind my back and telling amy things that arent true, i mean, yes i am mad at her, she knows that, but no matter how mad i am at her, i could never forget everything that we have been through.
please give me some advice on what to do.....i dont know what to do, my mind is all over the place right now....
Laura