Can i do this?
So ive decided to slowly let all the shit in my life go. Ive realized that i can no longer go on like this, i have to let the small shit go and just try and make myself happy on my own. I love it when i smile for no particular reason, but no one notices i dont think and those days dont come often. Why do I feel like I need someone to love so I can feel complete? Is this just me? I mean I just need to be patient right? Im sure it will all work out in the end, it just sucks going through it all right now. Today I realized how beautiful it was outside and I didnt wanna go back in to work but I had to. Summer school isnt so bad. I wanna get a new hobby and devote all my spare time to that particular hobby so that I dont have time to feel worthless and mopy. I should go now.