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I wanna write all the things I wanna text him. And I will, and I'll get it out, and I'll feel better.
Sammy, I love and miss you. I think about you all the time. I wish I knew why there was so much space between us now. I wish I knew why I don't feel loved by you anymore. Was I a bad friend? I feel like maybe I was too selfish. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I'm not sure which bad thing it was that I did but I know there probably were a few. You gave me that gift for my new job and I didn't give you a gift for your new job! I'm so sorry I wasn't as giving as you are. You are a better friend than I am. I wish we could hash it out so I could have my friend again but I'm scared running to you will do nothing but push you away. I feel like we are breaking up and I am so sad. Maybe I put too much emotional emphasis on you, on what you gave me. Is it because I brought all this up? Is the pressure too much? I'm scared I'm putting you on a pedestal and that's a lot of pressure for you. I feel like I'm literally losing all my friends and it's my worst nightmare.