needing to get something out of my system
funny thing about back up hard drives ... they tend to back up things that get downloaded... especially when they're saved into certain folder groups ... like pictures ... when the original is deleted, it's still on the back up drive.
And before you get all upset, I wasn't snooping and spying or anything like that ... I was updating things on firefox and had to open up the download list... I was curious what the pictures were... Imagine my surprise when they were pictures of Tanya ... one of them was pretty cute ... the other was a little trashy, but I believe it was from one of the biker week things she does ...
I'm just curious why you downloaded them only to delete them right away. Of course me and my insecurities jump right to the idea that you wanted to hide them from me ... and my mind also goes to thinking that was because you downloaded them instead of looking at porn ... and that bothers me a lot ... Of course ... you could have just downloaded them because she's your friend and you thought the pictures were cute ... but if that were the case, I don't see why you'd delete them ...
You shouldn't have to hide anything from me... If you feel that you do have to hide things from me then there are problems ... you need to be able to talk to me ... even if you think it might upset me ... hiding things, little white lies, or lies of omission have no place in a marriage ... that's how things start to go down hill ... honesty is always best ... if you don't try to hide anything, I won't wonder what else you might be hiding ... I won't wonder if you think about other people that we know... or that you know... whether you work with them ... or met them through friends... or whatever ...
I love you ... and when I find things like this... things that appear to be hidden that really shouldn't need to be hidden (after all, both of those pictures are on her facebook profile) ... and I have to wonder why you felt the need to hide them ... it feels like a kick in the stomach ... like trusting is something that I need to start being cautious about again. I know your history ... and I know history tends to repeat itself... and I know that you said that I'm different ... that you've never asked anyone else to marry you ... and that's what I hold on to ... I just hope that it's not blinding me.
And before you get all upset, I wasn't snooping and spying or anything like that ... I was updating things on firefox and had to open up the download list... I was curious what the pictures were... Imagine my surprise when they were pictures of Tanya ... one of them was pretty cute ... the other was a little trashy, but I believe it was from one of the biker week things she does ...
I'm just curious why you downloaded them only to delete them right away. Of course me and my insecurities jump right to the idea that you wanted to hide them from me ... and my mind also goes to thinking that was because you downloaded them instead of looking at porn ... and that bothers me a lot ... Of course ... you could have just downloaded them because she's your friend and you thought the pictures were cute ... but if that were the case, I don't see why you'd delete them ...
You shouldn't have to hide anything from me... If you feel that you do have to hide things from me then there are problems ... you need to be able to talk to me ... even if you think it might upset me ... hiding things, little white lies, or lies of omission have no place in a marriage ... that's how things start to go down hill ... honesty is always best ... if you don't try to hide anything, I won't wonder what else you might be hiding ... I won't wonder if you think about other people that we know... or that you know... whether you work with them ... or met them through friends... or whatever ...
I love you ... and when I find things like this... things that appear to be hidden that really shouldn't need to be hidden (after all, both of those pictures are on her facebook profile) ... and I have to wonder why you felt the need to hide them ... it feels like a kick in the stomach ... like trusting is something that I need to start being cautious about again. I know your history ... and I know history tends to repeat itself... and I know that you said that I'm different ... that you've never asked anyone else to marry you ... and that's what I hold on to ... I just hope that it's not blinding me.