Aug 10, 2005 23:45
"Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can't have them, but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them."
Nick's gone, he quit, and no one understands how much it hurts to know it's over and I'll probably never see him again. Everyone is so happy, they don't understand, he may have his faults but he's my friend and I can't face the fact that he's gone. It's like having your heart ripped in half, it hurts. Not that I would tell anyone how much I cared about him and hate that it's all over.. I swear the past just keeps repeating itself for me.. over and over and over.. Alex.. Lee.. Nick.. am I doomed to have this pattern repeat itself for the rest of my life??
"I want you to be happy, you're my best friend. But it's so hard to let you go now with all that could have been. I'll always have the memories. She'll always have you. Fate has a way of changing just when you don't want it to. Throw away the chains, let love fly away. Till love comes again, I'll be okay."