Lord, I am willing
"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sigh, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer." -Psalm 19:14
Everytime I read God's word, I feel so much joy... but at the same time I also realize how far I am from where I should be - from where God desires me. There are so many things I know I need to start doing and so many things I need to stop, and yet I can never seem to motivate myself - even though I know it would be more than worth it.
Part of me desires (so much) to make rules - a list of do's and don'ts - but I know from experience that that's probably the worst thing to do.
I learned so much on the week-long vacation that Jess and I took to South Carolina. I need to get back in church, start TITHING* again, learn how to socialize and fellowship w/ as many people as I can. I don't want to waste any more of my life like I have been the last 19 years.
I love my alone time, I hate surprise company, I ignore my friends' phone calls. What kind of example of God's love is that? I'm sure Jesus wouldn't ignore the phone if I called him. :( I know it's going to take a lot of work - blood, sweat and tears - to get where God wants me. But I am willing...
*(For those of you who don't know, you're not GIVING 10 percent of YOUR money to God... that 10 percent is GOD'S MONEY. If you keep it, you are stealing from him.)
Everytime I read God's word, I feel so much joy... but at the same time I also realize how far I am from where I should be - from where God desires me. There are so many things I know I need to start doing and so many things I need to stop, and yet I can never seem to motivate myself - even though I know it would be more than worth it.
Part of me desires (so much) to make rules - a list of do's and don'ts - but I know from experience that that's probably the worst thing to do.
I learned so much on the week-long vacation that Jess and I took to South Carolina. I need to get back in church, start TITHING* again, learn how to socialize and fellowship w/ as many people as I can. I don't want to waste any more of my life like I have been the last 19 years.
I love my alone time, I hate surprise company, I ignore my friends' phone calls. What kind of example of God's love is that? I'm sure Jesus wouldn't ignore the phone if I called him. :( I know it's going to take a lot of work - blood, sweat and tears - to get where God wants me. But I am willing...
*(For those of you who don't know, you're not GIVING 10 percent of YOUR money to God... that 10 percent is GOD'S MONEY. If you keep it, you are stealing from him.)