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man i never thought i would be this heartbroken over someone. i once again went into something thinking that i would be the one to not get hurt just like me and wade and now me and derek. i'll admit it i am in fact heartbroken and i miss him terribly and none of that will bring him back to me. i just dont know how someone falls out of love that quickly. i keep trying to turn every guy i meet here into him and its not working. derek sure did a number on me. i dont know what to do. i want to move on but i cant im stuck in a rut. no guy does anything for me anymore. im ready for that long term relationship and i thought that i would have it with derek but i guess not. i guess life is full of ups and downs...when can i go back up?