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well. looks like everything will work out. my mom says i have choices lots of them, but i think shes smokin crack because theres really only 2 choices. i could either leave college and have a shitty relationship with my parents for a really long time, struggle with a job and a place and so on and so forth, with no car and no money to start with... or, i could stay here and keep going with college and be kinda weird with my parents for a while and still have everything i need. so. what would you do.
i really dont have any idea what i want or anything. i really am lost. and i really do have depression. i hate this. having no choices or outlets sucks. i really wish i could have made friends here early on. maybe i wouldnt be where i am right now. scratch that, i wouldnt be where i am right now. fucking shit.
dammit. i feel like a sucker again. i hate feeling like a fucking sucker. oh well. ill get the fuck over it someday.
i really dont have any idea what i want or anything. i really am lost. and i really do have depression. i hate this. having no choices or outlets sucks. i really wish i could have made friends here early on. maybe i wouldnt be where i am right now. scratch that, i wouldnt be where i am right now. fucking shit.
dammit. i feel like a sucker again. i hate feeling like a fucking sucker. oh well. ill get the fuck over it someday.