Feb 04, 2009 22:36
This blog, however insignificant, now has a purpose.
It shows that sometimes things don't work out the way you expect.
I loved Michael so much. I literally gave him my whole heart, and was happy to dedicate my life to him. I stopped seeing a lot of my friends, I changed habits, I became a stepmum, I stayed at home and cooked and was completely happy to attempt to be the ultimate wife.
After we got engaged, we had more than a few fights that resulted in him hitting me. I insisted he see a psychologist and he refused. I said, I love you, I'm going to try to make this work, please see a psychologist, if you don't I can't be with you, I'm not going to be a battered woman, domestic violence is never ok. Eventually he said yes ok I'll see one... and then cancelled the appointment.
I changed absolutely everything about my life for that man. I don't regret doing it... love is worth it, for sure. But that's not real love... could you imagine hurting someone you know, and being ok with it?? And it's not your fault either, if you act like a bitch they should dump you, not justify themselves with 'love' and still hit you. No amount of attention and holidays and good stuff is worth mistreatment. If someone thinks they can hit you, it has to be over - no exceptions.
And it's not even 'sad but true' - thank God I was strong enough to realise that I am worth more than that! Always support people who put up with that shit... it's because they don't know their worth.