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it's not fair to just send this to one person and expect them to care. i can just post it here and no one will ever know right?? i iwsh i had the balls to take the knive and dirve it into my heart. i really wish i could do it. i dont wanna be scared anymore baby. please make this all go away. i can't even slice my fucking wrists, i'm too much of a coward. i like the blood but i'm afriad of the pain. baby please how can i do it? give me a gun and let it all be over with. no one wants me or needs me so y am i still here. my mother hates me. so doea my father. all she does it remind me of how much of a screw up i am and how i should just leave her and my father alone. i need to just die. i want to kill myself. it would make everyone happy. and i wouldn't have to livce with this anymore. cause i'm not strong enough for it. i'm pathetic. i can't even put pressure on the damn knife. such a fucking coward. i wish i could pass out from blood loss. take all this pain away please baby. i wish so fucking much this would all just end. i've been asking for the same damn this since i was in fourth grade. this is no way to fucking live. wanting to die half the fucking time. i swear on my mothers life i will kill myself. i will