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well it's official. by the time my 10yr high school reunion comes around, there will be like 5 people there. how many of my friends have to die, and why only my friends. i don't get it. Eliott Cyman, oh my gosh....it's weird. He taught me how to ride a dirt bike, we spent so many nights in high school sitting in his garage, he always use to bring me a ricker's pop every single day my junior year. He was ALWAYS there for me, even when i did stupid things. That boy knew more about me than Sonnet did. (aka my bestfriend n hs) Now he's gone. He was so care free, and caring at the same time. How many more of my friends are you going to take. These are the people that i grew up with. Made me the person i am. And i miss them every single day, and will for the rest of my freaking life. it's not fair. and i'm done not having an answer. their young. he had the rest of his life to live. it's just not fair. now, how does anyone and i mean anyone expect me to get close to anyone ever again, without the fear that their going to be gone. so cut me some slack and stop telling me i have to open my heart to someone. because the people that have my heart aren't on this earth anymore.....