layout tweakage
I've customised the background of my journal. And after doing that, I realised that I needed to desaturate most of the colours. So, I did that. The second background picture is my favourite. It's cut out from a British advert that said, "Albino he-she, seeks similar." The third is a goat's eye.
Neil begins working at the health centre tomorrow. I suppose it's not to make up for my slack, but it feels that way. On some level, I know he got a job again because Rebecca moved to Vancouver and he doesn't want James or himself to pay the bills out of their inheritances. I get that. But then that old worthless feeling comes back. Rebecca called today and we did some sorting out with the lease, as well as some business talk about the bookstore. She wants to sell it. Preferably, to one of us. I don't have enough money on my own to buy it, but James does. I'm not going to let him give it to me, though, because I'm not well enough to manage anything. I told Kevin about it, though, and he nearly began salivating. I don't know where he'd come up with that kind of money, since before he moved here, he never even had food, according to Amanda.
Speaking of Amanda, she wants to take me to Amherst, NY to a Barnes & Noble Harry Potter Party. I've not been to the US in a long time and if I think about it too much, I'll get anxious and psyche myself out. Amherst is near Niagara Falls, NY, so if we get bored with the children at B&N, we can go make a day of the falls and come back. Amanda's really flexible and always fun to be around and I know she put herself out to make these plans. I just hope that I'm able to go outside before the 15th. So inconvenient, this mental illness thing.
Neil begins working at the health centre tomorrow. I suppose it's not to make up for my slack, but it feels that way. On some level, I know he got a job again because Rebecca moved to Vancouver and he doesn't want James or himself to pay the bills out of their inheritances. I get that. But then that old worthless feeling comes back. Rebecca called today and we did some sorting out with the lease, as well as some business talk about the bookstore. She wants to sell it. Preferably, to one of us. I don't have enough money on my own to buy it, but James does. I'm not going to let him give it to me, though, because I'm not well enough to manage anything. I told Kevin about it, though, and he nearly began salivating. I don't know where he'd come up with that kind of money, since before he moved here, he never even had food, according to Amanda.
Speaking of Amanda, she wants to take me to Amherst, NY to a Barnes & Noble Harry Potter Party. I've not been to the US in a long time and if I think about it too much, I'll get anxious and psyche myself out. Amherst is near Niagara Falls, NY, so if we get bored with the children at B&N, we can go make a day of the falls and come back. Amanda's really flexible and always fun to be around and I know she put herself out to make these plans. I just hope that I'm able to go outside before the 15th. So inconvenient, this mental illness thing.