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before i say anything i would like to thank dohts and my mom, josh, john, and work? for being the bright spots in my week. spots doesn't necessarily sound right, but the message is clear enough.
why i love dohts: uh. she's amazing? i have the best conversations with her than i have had with anyone in a long time. i love going out with her even if its only been a few times. our adventure to panera and borders definitely helped to make my week more tolerable. thank you for being the sweetest most genuine girl ever.
why i love my mom: she is the most incredible person in the world. and she cries when i say nice things to her. she also bought me cinnamon tea and fabric spray, to get me in the christmas spirit. god i love her.
why i love josh: for making me feel better after my treacherous(?) week and for proof reading my college essay, and of course putting up with me when i was convinced i could not write a college essay, in fact i do believe i was convinced it would kill me. yes folks, i am over dramatic.
why i love work: "thats not for coffee, its clearly a butt plug, come here i'll show you". "no seriously, i'm only going to take your tempature". "one time i wrote a book report about the big blue bug". "here's a little booty romp shake". "i work at a woman's hospital, you boys don't even know where girls have been, double wrap it!". "you did what with a monkey?". and of course my boss, bill, for his endless angry, no-bull-shit policy, and ninja activities.
why i love john: who else would make me smile at school? period.
you; i am so happy to have met you. you will never think this is about you, but our little talks and likeness' make me far too happy. i can't wait to see you soon.
you; i really don't know why its come down to this. i wish you would initiate a talk with me. it is desperately necessary. i dont understand why we are throwing our friendship away. i guess "you are one of the people i am going to miss the most. and i will always be here for you", didnt mean very much at all. you can't remain bestfriends with someone for long when you are not connected with them, i want to connect again.
you; i miss being close to you, in the beginning of the year i loved our talks and when we hung out i thought it was something that would continue, i'm not going to lie, i am truly disappointed things changed.
you; i hope to see you next year so badly. of course i will see you before then, but i want to be where you are so badly.
you; thought our time together is usually insignificant, you always make me that much happier. you are one of the first people to ever have to help me walk when intoxicated. thank you, for that, and for being you.
you; sometimes i think i annoy the hell out of you. our friendship does mean alot to me. i think it has been three years now, and you have always been there for me whether to tell me sweet things, critique my work, or push ideas into my mind. thank you truly from the bottom of my heart.
you; i cannot pin what it is about you that makes me want to be close friends with you, but i am crossing my fingers.
you; i secretly resent you for doing exactly what you promised you would not do. when you tell someone how much they mean to you, sometimes you have to show it. 35 minutes is not a far enough distance to seperate true friends, and neither is a boy. i hope you learn that lesson before too long.
you; i feel as though i hurt you in someway and i am sorry. i used to feel pretty comfortable around you and now i feel sad because i don't know what to say or do around you, and you will never ever think this has to do with you, but it does.
you; thank you for coming back into my life. exactly when i needed a strong female influence. we are scumbags and we know it. in fact i am pretty sure we embrace it. i love you with no buts.
you; i love how you write. just the touches you put on the simplest of things. not to mention i think you are absolutely beautiful. and we both love journals. but i dont think you knew that.
you; i miss you. at one point i thought we were on the road to becoming good friends. but after we spent a night together i feel as though we never really re-connected. i like to think you are just busy. i am probably wrong, but i know you are searching for change. i hope you don't go too far.
you; you love to tell me how i have been MIA, but you don't call to figure things out either. start calling to figure things out. i am not always going to let our friendship fall into place, your value to me requires more effort on your part. i love you.
you; please stop being an asshole. i know your hard shell has been deemed funny, but sometimes its just nice to be nice. and if you didn't notice i have no intention of calling you when you tell me i was a backup plan.
you; thank you for meaning everything to me these last couple weeks. i never realized how much i value the little moments. i love you.
you; i told you not to forget. i think you did. regardless, i still need to talk to you. i need your input on many aspects of my life. i dont really know why, but something inside me is telling me to turn to you.
you; you make my job as secret santa very hard.
you; you and your bestfriend seriously make up two of the nicest people i know. i love talking to you, and watch out for god, he may be trying to smite you.
you; things are not the same. i wish we had a ritual. more importantly, i hope your happy. thats all i have ever wanted for you.
you; we are similar in our group of friends, mostly for a negative reason. its not our fault, just one of those things. my favorite thing about you is that you always hug both hi and goodbye. you are made up of so many things i admire. someday i will let you in on that.
you; i will never understand you. ever. i hope you are okay. i am not hearing good things. i hope you call me soon.
you; i hate that i hold one thing against you, it is stupid and petty, but i cannot shake it. you really are a great person, and a wonderful friend. someday i will not be petty.
you; are one of my favorite people in school. i am sorry for your recent troubles, but i am here for you and i hope you know that. thank you for being my physicA partner, making me eat sprouts, and planning christmas schemes with me. elfar isn't so bad herself :)
you; it was nice spending time with you the other day. i thnk we should do it again soon. i will definitely give you a call like i said.
you; drive me up a wall and right back down again. it is not all about you. i really don't think you see that.
i have too many friends, i only think that is half of them.
if you want to guess if they are about you, shoot. otherwise i just needed to vent.