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May 02, 2011 19:20

I haven't posted on this in four years. I am removing all my friends from the list and making this an outlet for whatever. Four years? Feels like a hundred. Katherine is showering. I am buzzed. Three beers to the wind.

I didn't even know Katherine then. I was so self-centered. I didn't know Jer then either. Little did I know that he would someday become someone I relied on. Someone that I need to function. Love meant less to me then. It was more exciting but I had no idea what it meant to have a solid relationship. Time has taught me many things. Angst isn't cute. I wasn't cute then, still am not. But now I am more careful. Have learned to be cautious about what I say. In reality I treated Ryan like a piece of shit. And I got what was coming to me by James.

Boys are not important. They always seem that way at the time, though. Jeremy is not every other boy. He's actually a man--and because of the respect that he shows me and the way our relationship has progressed, I can sincerely say that though it isn't set in stone, I'm going to work to make this one last.
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